First week on anxiety meds. Been working quite well for me. Less nerves on songs too! Also don't do bad drugs, don't take the title too seriously.

OT14 is coming up and so is summer break. I will be able to play Zygourous by the end of OT14

I get nerves when I play anything but FFRMania and uprates on normal engine. Therefore I cannot get equiv or feel good about myself on anything but FFRMania. I will get good enough to play Zygourous Distrib then get equiv and finally get to level 90+. Did you know that Zygourous has hands?!? That's crazy. Also real happy with my improvement recently, but my hands are starting to get some issues. If i play too long my knuckles turn red and then are kinda uncomfy for a day or two. My old keyboard is lighter and nicer to my hands but it chatters. Therefore i use old keyboard to prevent damage to self.

Zygourous competent score coming soon! soon being a few months.

How long will I stay number 1 on M.A.G.I.C Speed Ball (hi19) on the FFRMania leaderboards? probably once someone other than me plays them.

More Jumpstream scores coming to a #ffr-bragboard near you

Generalizations are bad and anything similar that makes every individual in some sort of grouping the same (ex. stereotypes) are just as bad since they are essentially the same thing.

Looking at the past in my life many people have shown a disliking to a certain group of people due to how they appear to someone on the outside (not referring exclusively to race), a narrow perspective. This problem appears to stem from ignorance, not just ignorance of the people being referred to but an ignorance in thinking from another perspective.

How do we fix this ignorance? Why does it exist in the first place?

From my own experience the best way to fix this ignorance is to analyze not the people you're generalizing, but yourself. Introspection has been the answer for me, since people differ from me they may have different ways of addressing this issue.

(again from my experience) It exists in the first place due to the way I was raised. "Don't get involved with those people" was something my mother would say to me whenever partying/drugs were mentioned in the news or something. The issues with this is that I/she never considered the perspective of those doing the actions. This way of thinking appears to be passed down through time.

We need to understand ourselves before we can even begin to attempt to understand others. Breaking a behavior so deep rooted is definitely a challenge but one that is necessary for me to become a better person.

I will admit that I do generalize and stereotype people. Only now am I realizing that I need to put more thought into these people and their perspectives. I hope posting this will cause others (and myself) to do some introspection and hopefully benefit. Nobody is perfect and nobody is normal, but they are different.


^ Yeah, I just wrote an ELA essay as a random thought.

This random thought will serve as a reminder to myself of what I must do on August 16th 2021, my 18th birthday.

Reminder to make Slashmaid (not instrumental) the most played song in FFR. Or atleast play it for the entire day.