Isn't that hard to do? Literally a third grader can do this.

Why can't I enjoy things like I used to?
Why do I have to care so much on what I'm about to do?
Why do I have to make small problems so gigantic?
Why do I even need validation from everyone?
Why do I even care?
Why do I have to fit in to society?

Why am I scared of doing something I love?

I feel like I cannot continue, everything went way too fast, I'm wasting my time doing useless activities, whatever I do in life contributes nothing at all to society, everything I did values nothing, then why should I continue?

I hope I can solve these questions fast so I can delete this random thought. If not, then you know the drill.

Neat Web Based Rhythm Game OwO

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great gaim :)
i play cs1.6 n source cuz my laptop doesn't meet the minimum requiements for cs2 :((

I had been locked out of this account for a while, but now I'm back.

My students just have two more weeks of school and then we are all free lol. I'm going to use my Winter Break to play more.

Now that I have access to this account, I will undergo the huge task of starting from the bottom of my levelrank and playing through every song I have access to at least once. I had been playing offline for the last few weeks and having some fun.

Someone mentioned at my part time job a few months ago that they used to play this game as a kid. It was funny to be able to pull my laptop out and show him that I played this game too. Ever since then, I've been playing at night to relax before bed.

No promises, but maybe I'll stick around longer this time.

-John

Edits:

12.10.2024 - The semester is nearly over and I had a few fun sessions these last few days. Been playing difficulty 70-82's and then going to easier songs to try to AAA those. There are so many songs to play now lol.

12.12.2024 - I played an imagine dragons song and got a blackflag. I cannot believe I will need to play that again someday.

If you're reading this, my OG account will (most likely) have been wiped. If you didn't know what my OG username was, then you'll simply have to meet me again.

The past almost 17 years of memories on this site shall now rest in peace. Time to move forward and create new memories with people that find me.

#PoyoBestTeam

PS. I might play some games while in my work office. I tend to keep it a secret the same way Agent P keeps his duties.

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2000 FC (Dec,8th,2024)

Currently @ 1963 FC (Nov,28th,2024)

what a pro game (lol)

Okay. So I learned some stuff about that seizure that happened last month. Apparently, while that was my first epileptic seizure, it's not my first seizure in general. I've been having episodes where I can't think straight and can't do simple things like walking. Apparently those were non-active seizures.

So that sucks. I think the hat the best way to fix it is to take breaks from screens every now and then.

fourthstyle when

Old profile had 6-0-0-0 on Lawn Wake I and 100+ tier points. Not incredible but better than I'm at right now. Starting a small log to track progress.

// 22/11/24 //
Been playing again on and off for about a month. Currently nearing 300 FC's and sat at 73 TP. Still struggling to unlock Takecore of Yourself, got an unfortunate blackflag on Rat Twist.

Managed to sightread SDG a couple 60+ files today which is a good sign, accuracy was never a strong point. Specifically dropped a 1-0-0-1 sightread on DARK KNIGHT [67], but also hit NULCTRL, Connected World and WiLD PLANET. Should be bumping my best AAA from 50 to somewhere in the 60's any day now if I can get over the jitters and figure out how to blink while playing without dropping a good.

Hit level 60 today due to the SDGs and dropped avgrank under 6k by playing some older files. Need to play a bunch of easier/older stuff to improve AAAs and avgrank but more focused on improving accuracy atm so I don't need to replay the boring files.

// 23/11/24 //
-Takecore still being elusive. Booflagged Szamar Madar till 800+ notes then choked the end and finished with 5.4 raw goods, a little off from the 4g mark for 4/5TP.
-Finally unlocked Battle Ax by fixing esc (super version) from 2-0-0-1 to a blackflag where I choked a good 30 notes from the end. Annoying to drop the AAA but happy to get that token after trying for a week or two.
-Improved {Rose} from 14-1-1-1 to 3-0-0-0 to unlock {Midnight}. Another satisfying token get.
-FINALLY GOT TAKECORE. Fixed 2-0-0-0 on Fast Rap Battle to AAA after 4.4 raw goods on Szamar Madar. Good day for tokens.

// 25/11/24 //
-Polished off some more annoying tokens like Smiley and Samurai Road.
-Improved scores on a bunch of 50's to low SDG.
-AAA'd a couple more 50's.
-Got my first ever avgflag, on a 16 lmao

// 26/11/24 //
-Unlocked Coactive by AAA'ing a bunch of 16-45-ish files. Bumped myself well over 100 AAA's, something like 40 new ones today.
-Got a near SDG on Fast Asleep [72] with 10-0-0-4. Scoping out a few Oni candidates and this one seems possible.
-Hit 1B grand total today which is kinda cool.

// 27/11/24 //
-AAA'd all of Easiest. Yay?
-Played all of the 4TP songs and got myself barely over 100TP total, few sightread SDGs which is nice.
-Played some of my highest levelrank files. Dropped avgrank below 5k and hit 400 FC's.
-Failed to unlock World Sound several times. Kept getting towards the end of Takecore with like 2g so tried to scuff the ending intentionally a bit and came as close as 8-1-0-0 ):
-Sightread blackflag on the Article by Crow [64] in the last quarter, missed out on 5/5TP but bumped me to skill level 61.

// 28/11/24 //
-Got my first SDG on a 70+, 7-1-0-2 on Fast Asleep. Combined with yesterday's efforts on Tier Points files, puts my top 5 SDGS at 68-71. Oni eking closer and closer.
-Got another 70 SDG on Men & Machines [Redemption] with 5-1-0-1.
-AAA'd more than half of Beginner.
-Reached skill level 62.
-150 AAA's.
-Unlocked Kyuin with a clean 2g on Mou Uta Shika Kikoenai [59].

// 29/11/24 //
-Avgrank under 5k.
-150 Tier Points.
-Unlocked World Sound by intentionally dumping 8g in the last 200 notes of Takecore. File is AAA'able but I don't wanna play it anymore lmao
-500 FC's, yeeeeeee

// 30/11/24 //
-Improved Fast Asleep to 5-0-0-2 and barely scraped up to skill level 63.
-Got my first equiv over 70 with a 11-0-0-3 on grind1.
-Lost loser's bracket round 1 in OWL 2 to get eliminated. Lost Materialize Anything with 2-0-0-1 to 2-0-0-0, booflagged until nearly 900 notes then hit a jump late for 2 goods. Then lost Clocktown with an uncharacteristically bad 6-0-0-0 to my opponent's 5-0-0-0. I improved Clocktown from 1-0-0-1 to BF earlier today so that one stung but oh well, couldn't perform and my opponent was better. Had fun anyway.

// 01/12/24 //
-Improved best AAA from Fast Rap Battle [54] to Luna Ascension [55].
-Clean 2g on Nica's Dream - The Game [62] and 3g on Rocket Flight [63]. St. Scarhand [Standard] doesn't feel too far away.

hell yeah

recent pp rework made me thinking about this, i hate the PP system not like etterna, ffr, and malody

but still i love their sv maps, makes me had a dillemma should i uninstall it?

SO MUCH SHIT ON MY SSD WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Yep, it's more or less what it sounds like. On January 5th, I created a personal Skill Rating leaderboard that I would use to track my AAAs only:

https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1BTqzbsbacrCDEhMHS7otLXPB3e0KfZF9c3JIwD84Fz0/edit?sharingaction=ownershiptransfer&gid=0#gid=0

I don't know when I decided that I wanted to go for D6 with only AAAs. The version history on the spreadsheet says it's at least since July 7th. I feel like it may have been earlier, maybe even as soon as I got D6.

It was maybe a little silly of me - not to mention a bit too early - to want to go for something like that. I'd soon learn that the 81-83 AAAs I'd need to get in order to clinch this achievement were actually no joke, and getting my level above the arbitrary magic number didn't make them any easier. I slowly chipped away at it for a good while, but the math would be as brutal as the one to get to D6 itself.

However, some insane AAAs near the tail end of the year gave me a BIG push towards this objective. All the 88+ AAAs ended up being a huge shortcut amd allowed me to secure D6 without even grinding out the #40-#50 range. These are genuinely some of my best scores and they made me feel like this was, more than anything, earned.

Right now, it's 5 AM. I'm hungry and sleepy. But before getting to that, I'm scrolling down the list and wow holy shit so many of these were hard and annoying. I can recall the grind for almost all of them. It does make me realize how much I've enjoyed accuracy play and grinding for these AAAs on FFR - something I've really enjoyed, but put aside in the past in favor of pushing and chasing milestones. It's been nice to do my own thing here.

Time to see how long it will take for D7 with AAAs. Never? Probably. who knows though