I hope she doesn't read that, since I have a link to my FFR profile on my myspace, and think that I'm so happy about something I'm sure she's quite upset about. I do feel very bad for her with what's happened to her recently. And the only thing I've really thought up to say to her so far is something from the Speech 200 class we were both in. It was basically that when you break up with someone, you should spend a few days to get to know yourself again, rather than just get in another relationship in 5 minutes. Any other suggestions please?

Not only did I manage to get 2 more hugs from that girl again today, since 2 on Monday wasn't enough, I also just found out she just broke up with her boyfriend. I had kind of figured out that was going to happen, but I didn't expect it to happen yet. Oh well, I shouldn't complain, I guess. Also, she's not been doing well lately. She's gotten money stolen, her cell phone was broken, and a bunch of other bad stuff. Anyonw have ideas on what I can do to make her feel better?

P.S.: Plus I don't have school tomorrow!

Ok, just after remembering some of the devilish things people should gth for like that I need to learn to play like a normal player, and for figuring out how long this has been going on and how many points and credits I could easily have had by now with speed mods, I'm extremely unhappy. I mean, I now will foreverly consider grand total, credits, rank, all that stuff to be 200% meaningless. I mean, it's one thing if it's just who's played the most and that's it. But it's another if it's who's played the most, and upscrollers have about a 700,000,000-point advantage over me from all the time I've missed due to speed mods, and that amount will just continue to get higher. Actually, I might as well consider everyone that plays upscrolls ranks to be bs. Also, I don't think I've ever been this depressed before, I've never cried over 5 times in one day before. Well, maybe when I was really young or something. I actually kind of feel like leaving this place. This whole speed mod thing is so depressing I'm happier at school that later in the day when I'm here. I feel so hopeless on quizzes that on one quiz I had on Friday, I knew so little that I just answered true for the first 8 questions, and false for the remaining 17. Now, don't ask how, but I ended up with an 86%. However, I failed the other quiz I had to take on that day. I can't do anything well anymore with how obliterated I am by all this crap. I mean, what do I want? I want to make myself happy. What has this site been doing to me? It has made me more sad than anything else ever. By the time reverse players get speed mods, we'll be so far behind on so many songs I might as well just consider it futile to ever catch up, anyway. Oh well, everyone with half a brain knows that any of the current top players lists are through the roof with inaccuracy, anyway. That tier requirement thread seems to give huge points to anything with jacks. So, since I suck at jacks without speed mods, it rates me way lower than it should. I doubt anyone else tier 3 or worse that has played anywhere near as much as they'd need to to reach their best scores has reached as many 5-point requirements as I have. The only way to get a good top player system is to have it based on no more than each player's top 20 songs, maybe even less, and give nothing for all their other scores. Average rank is also obviously way off since it's really mostly based on how much people whore easy stuff. Oh well, being thought of as a good player is a bad thing, since it will get you into higher divisions. And, btw, almost all the scores I've seen in the brag board recently suck massively. With speed mods, anything worse than, say, under 20 goods on Balloon or something equally hard on another song isn't brag worthy AT ALL with speed mods. Well, enough of this crap, I just really freaking hope downscrollers get something to compensate for this.

Since I'm not playing much FFR at all with being speed mods deprived, I'm now averaging 112 posts per day here over the last 3 days! I need to catch tass someday.

I couldn't manage to catch her on AIM today, oh well, I still have a reasonable chance of seeing her tomorrow!:) And in real person is so much better since she always seems to be very happy to wrap her arms around me.:)