I believe I'm going to be a mod of rithum.com soon, this is so exciting to me!

I still have to go back for at least one more day of jury duty, even though I was kind of expecting to only have to be there 2 days. Oh well, and don't ask for any details about this, they're ridiculously picky about not giving away much info. about this.

10. Nova Pulser
9. Silence
8. Vertex BETA
7. Balloon Fever
6. Turkish March
5. HELLBEAT
4. Rottel-da-station
3. Flight of the Bumblebee
2. BB Evolution


and...


drum roll please...


1. Exciting Hyper Highspeed Star, without mashing!

Whoever posted this thread in the staff forums: - I don't have the heart to tell this guy he's stunningly unfunny, with this link: http://www.flashflashrevolution.com/vbz/showthread.php?t=70706
I even think I know who made that topic, anyway.

I'm guessing it's probably me, and I don't mind no matter who says it's me. I already know I'm completely not funny, and I've already felt just about as disrespected as possible from posting unfunny stuff in the gbin, so idc.

I'm actually starting to hate the gbin so much that I wish I couldn't even see it. It used to be mostly stuff that I could tell was gbin stuff from the title in the new threads and on the home page, but now it sounds like stuff that really grabs my attention, and then I am really bothered when I notice it was part of the spamfest that I just wasted another second staring at the title of another one of their topics for the 319893898th time. -Tibs- even sent me a PM saying I'd been gbin banned, and I think it was a prank, since I don't see it in the gbin panel topic, but idc, I don't think I'll ever post there again, anyway. It's worse than it was when emmcky posted like 20x in a row stuff like 37466. I actually laughed at that. Now, to me, the stuff there seems like the most unfunny possible things, and makes me wonder what is wrong with the people that post it. It seems to me like most of the staff members almost never post anywhere else anymore, unless they actually modded a non-gbin topic. Some don't even seem to post at all anymore, if they ever did, since some have really lost post counts, but I don't even know what was going on around here to how things got this way, but w/e. I've actually been so unhappy here that I'm trying to find other things to do, this is just making me feel more depressed the longer I stay here, and I'm also starting to lose interest in achieving "my goal," for a couple reasons.
1. I've decided everything in the staff forums must be painfully boring, when I used to think it was really exciting. I've seen the staff forums of so many other sites I've lost count, and they're all really boring, plus I don't worship any of the staff members and think they're perfect or whatever I was so ignorant to think that they were long ago lol.
2. I don't even think being a mod would be very fun. Oops lol, these 2 reasons totally give away what my goal is, but that's ok, I don't think I really care much for achieving it anymore, plus everyone that reads my comments already knows, sadly even including a staff member when they say not to say this stuff. First of all, it seems like they're not getting anymore staff members much lately, and second, I'm starting to think modding MP or whatever would actually be rather boring. It's not like they can kick people out of rooms, and the lobby is just a regular chat room, that's not really that exciting, and, I don't know, the thought of it just doesn't get me excited at all really anymore.

Now, what does get me more excited than ever is girls. I want a girl more than anything. There's that one person with a sig that quoted someone saying that only real men put FFR before sex, yet I'd put hugging a girl even for 1/10000000000000th of a second before FFR. I think it would do me more good to try to figure out how to not screw everything up all the time so I might actually get another girl than spending 3898329 hours per day (yes, I know there aren't that many, but it seems like it) trying to achieve some other goal that would make me 1/aleph-null times as happy.

So, I'm going to try to see if I can spend less time here. I feel as though I'm not gaining anything, I'm just killing time. And I don't want to waste anymore of my time, it's extremely valuable to me, and there are tons of things I'd still like to do. I can't even imagine all that I could have done with all the time that I've spent here. Yea, FFR is a fun game, but no one should let it become your life where you throw away the life you had before, and never return to it, even with many things left undone. I can start by getting one of them now-sleep. Good night. *Gives you a hug if you want one*

I don't care if people give me them. They don't lower my number of profile votes, or do anything that anyone can even tell ever happened in any way but me, and probably some of the staff members. I've decided to give people thumbs downs for saying a token is easy, since that's just plain being an @$$.