For ones who don't know, yes I'm gay. [u don't say etc etc]
Anyway, for 10+ years I've kept this under wraps as much as I could with them, though was never either confident enough to break the news or just feared rejection or whatever else may have happened had I broken the news any earlier.
But I don't know what compelled me to coming out tonight. It may have been the fact that I officially rented my own apartment surpassing the need for a co-signer. Maybe I felt like since I am moving out again, I should just... let them know the truth now and have the entire "feeling" of it get the **** off my chest.
Because either way, I wouldn't have been phased with any reaction, honestly. My mentality has changed when I've been living, taking care of and supporting my own. I honestly give no ****s for sympathy or opposition. Maybe that is what compelled me into coming clean: just get it out of the way and show no emotion over any kind of reaction.
So I did it. The phrase: Mom . . . Dad . . . . . . . I'm gay". Ackward ****ing silence for a hot 30 seconds. I stared down, waiting for SOMEONE to react. Then the silence was broken by my dad:
"Ken, you're an adult now. This is your personal life and we are not in control of that. But you know that's wrong, right?"
That's the end of my story. I commenced silence for the rest of the talk, didn't say another word. My dad was "cool" with it, but thinks I'm wrong and spilled religious banter here and there. My mom is pissed.
Glad to know that I got my huge boulder off of my chest.
Anyway, for 10+ years I've kept this under wraps as much as I could with them, though was never either confident enough to break the news or just feared rejection or whatever else may have happened had I broken the news any earlier.
But I don't know what compelled me to coming out tonight. It may have been the fact that I officially rented my own apartment surpassing the need for a co-signer. Maybe I felt like since I am moving out again, I should just... let them know the truth now and have the entire "feeling" of it get the **** off my chest.
Because either way, I wouldn't have been phased with any reaction, honestly. My mentality has changed when I've been living, taking care of and supporting my own. I honestly give no ****s for sympathy or opposition. Maybe that is what compelled me into coming clean: just get it out of the way and show no emotion over any kind of reaction.
So I did it. The phrase: Mom . . . Dad . . . . . . . I'm gay". Ackward ****ing silence for a hot 30 seconds. I stared down, waiting for SOMEONE to react. Then the silence was broken by my dad:
"Ken, you're an adult now. This is your personal life and we are not in control of that. But you know that's wrong, right?"
That's the end of my story. I commenced silence for the rest of the talk, didn't say another word. My dad was "cool" with it, but thinks I'm wrong and spilled religious banter here and there. My mom is pissed.
Glad to know that I got my huge boulder off of my chest.
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