do i smile is the newest challenge in the fc mission I have set for myself in getting every song fc'd. With insane streams, rolls, and a section where it speeds up very quickly, so fast in fact that I am forced to mash that section, it's a new song that I'm gonna have to watch out for when doing my mission. From the incredible mind of T+Pazolite, a leader in my mind of Touhou remixes, this epic Terror/speedcore track brings a whole new definition to the word insanity. With blazing fast transitions that are almost impossible to keep up with for the average FFR player, do i smile is an extreme stepfile that brings even some of the most experienced players to their knees.

Watch out for when I finally fc it. It's gonna be thrill.

DON'T FUCK WITH OKUU, aka REIUJI UTSUHO

YES!!!

Okay, so I've been having these weird thoughts lately (no, it's not a KH rip off) and they've been really bothering me lately, since I think I'm becoming emo. I know a few of the signs (like actually cutting myself is one, have a scar on my arm as proof) and suicide notes is another (which I haven't resorted to, thank god). But this whole idea about life and death - it hardly makes any sense to me. I mean, sure, life is precious and sacred, I get that part. I just don't see how death can be any different. Think about it: NO ONE KNOWS FOR SURE WHAT HAPPENS AFTER DEATH. And this thought has been bugging me for some time - weeks, maybe months, and I'm still trying to find an answer.

I'm usually not this open about things, but let's be honest here, folks. Has there ever been at least one time in your life when all you were interested in is trying to figure out what happens after all that funeral, burial/cremation stuff? Also, while we're on that subject (i'll get back to the main topic in a minute - don't smash your keyboards like that german kid) have you noticed that whenever a family member dies and people hear about it, almost everybody involved or known that person GOES to that funeral, including people that disliked or even hated or even had agrudge against the already deceased? And have you noticed that whenever they nice stuff about the deceased, often times, they'll make shit up? "Oh, he was an asshole. But a well-meaning asshole."

Back to the main subject: Curiosity has always filled my head about what happens after death. Remember that whole "To Be or Not To Be" speech from Hamlet (to those of you who have read it?) He talks about what death might be like to him. (No, this is not a suicide passage; it just concerns with natural curiosty to those of you who are thinking or might be thinking that this is a suicide passage, so I'm still gonna be alive for a LONG while after this) But what does it all mean? Is it just a passage or speech? Or doe it have meaning and definition? To those of you who have read Hamlet, it means something, and I can honestly say this to you, in a way, I sort of feel the same about life, but not in the way Hamlet viewed it. I mean, does death even exist AT ALL? And if so, where is it? And what is its purpose if it has one at all? (the answer/s you come up with are yours to either share or keep to yourself; I don't care which and I don't judge that quickly)

And speaking of purpose, what am I even here for? I've been looking for an answer for years ever since I first asked myself that, and so far, I've come up with nothing. Do I have a purpose? And where am I even going with this? Honestly, I don't know. But I can tell you this: Not asking questions gets you all dazed and confused - more than you'll EVER know, and I've learned this from experience. That's why I ask myself a lot of things, most questions I don't even have an answer for. I'll probably continue this some other time, but for right now, this is where I'll stop. If you have any questions about what I've been thinking, PLEASE let me know.

Obviously, overexhaustion is Ostentatious of Overuse of overlapping.


Part 4 to come soon.