If it's not one thing it's another lately :/ I just found out that my 3 month old nephew has a brain hemorrhage and has had two seizures yesterday. My family never got a hold of me to let me know they left me to find out through facebook and what's worst is I am not allowed to see my nephew and I want to see him so badly right now to make sure he'll be ok... this is so hard on me :'(

Talk about a long night. Last night I ended up spraining a muscle in my hip while trying to get something out of my fridge. I was literally stuck on my floor for two hours unable to move because the pain was so bad. I was on the phone with my husband who sadly lives with my father-in-law until we can afford a place of our own, at the time of the incident and his father told him that Jared was not to use the car. His father made no effort to come out and help pick me up off my floor and the asshole picks old people up for a living. So I was on my floor for two hours before Jared called the paramedics to come and get me. The hospital staff dubbed the injury as a sprained hip muscle and put me on some good pain killers to help with the pain. I was stuck at the hospital with no way home for 8 hours... I had one hell of a crazy night!

Since Sudan doesn't allow adoptions, I have moved my adoption to Uganda :D ♥ Jared and I will be adopting a little boy from Uganda and because the process isn't as long there if we plan on getting legal guardianship of the child so we can adopt him in the US, the process will take anywhere between 1-3 months to get a court hearing in Uganda and then it'll take anywhere between 5-9 weeks to gain custody of our son and then our child should be here with us in early 2014!!! :D ♥

I dedicate this song to my son! Mommy and Daddy love you honey and before you know it, you'll be home with us and you'll start a brand new life! For now hold on for us until we can get you sweetheart <3 Believe in Dreams baby boy because one of yours is about to become a reality as is mine and your daddy's dream of bringing you home! <3 We love you sweetie! <3

Honestly, the way I look at things, and I don't care how others look at it, but I may not have adopted mine and Jared's son yet but I am that child's mother because one day very soon, he will be home with me. So it may not be legally binding, but I am that little boy's mom already and the love I have for my little boy is so immense. A mother's love has no bounds whether he's fully adopted yet or not! I love my son and that's all that matters in the end is my undying love for my son and his love for me ♥ I hope I get to be as amazing a mother to my little boy as my mom was with me ♥ The bond I already have with the little boy, whoever he may be, that Jared and I are adopting is already there and that is a blessing in itself ♥ I love my son even though he's not home with me yet ♥ With that being said, I am proud to be a mom! :D ♥