I'm just surprised because you'd think at this rank i'd have one, but nope. Still grinding for it as always tho.

(I know the 7 month mark was 10 days ago but still wanted to write this)

I can't believe i've already been on FFR for 7 damn months.

Time just flew by like that.

I remember so many memories from my 10 - 15 day mark, 1 month mark, and 2 month mark, and so much more as if they were all yesterday.

The good days of playing multiplayer with Fastrace and being shocked at how they were able to AAA standard songs, only 10 days into rhythm gaming. When my rhythm game discord server had barely any members.

I remember August, when I started getting into the discord. Met FlynnMac (kinda?), some other members, but was still too anxious to post anything. I remember that one god session where I set so many 40 equiv plays and a 50 equiv play. I remember when I played on my crappy MacBook, when Flash was still working. I remember being SO hyped about the top 10k, and was starting to get into rhythm game content. I knew more people in the community too.

September. My first tournament. I didn't do that well, but it was a fun experience. I remember meeting Ipu Maipants (funny name), although it's been a few months since I last talked with him (maybe 2 or 3). I remember being so blown away by how long The Impresario was. I remember my rhythm game discord server growing so much during this time. I remember the hype of a 60 equiv play, and the exciting moment when I got one.

October. Met katanaeyegaming, who is currently one of my best friends. Got reminded of those days with Fastrace. This was the time I switched to my PC to play FFR. Found out about Etterna too, but didn't play it too much. I started getting good around this time (I guess?), and started doing youtube again (all i do is post scores lol)

(Last month im posting about.) November. Damn. Started being more social, but was getting fed up with the game itself. Got banned from the FFR discord (cry, but the ban was 100% reasonable now lookin back on it). D5 too, and some 70 equiv plays. Also at the end got to the top 1k, and my first 80 equiv play. Also got into osu!mania this month.

That's all i'm writing for now, but I just wanted to share all these memories.

Here's to many more months of mania rhythm gaming.

Yeah title says it all, I honestly used to want to get on and play but now it's just become a chore and no break can stop the game from becoming a chore at this point tbh. I've tried stuff like playing lower star maps or playing meme maps, and trying wacky things, but even then I can't get myself to have the same fun I was having in November - Early December.

I also get really mad at myself when I underperform and it's hard to not have a negative mindset on a bad day. The only thing that remotely gets me excited is gaining ranks but then it's going back to a day of playing the game like I'm doing a chore.


So yeah just decided to post this RT for a quick update.

whoever thought making slashmaid was a good idea

nice