if you kno who you are and can answer this then do so can you love me?

I hate what I've become..something no one wants to be near..I'm just a fallen angel with broken wings..who was turned into a vampire..I love vampires..Wish I was one...

I miss my brother..All I want is to talk to him..I have this feeling it's strange really..I know that I've felt this pain before I just kinda ignored it.. I think It's called pain, If that's what it is then I'm suffering ha oh well like anyone cares anyway.. -tears from a broken heart-

"Dark That Follows"

There's just so many things you never needed to say.
Like ??
You're tears are meaningless, they're written on your face.
Just like your empty words, just like the chemical.
Just like the disease that stains your lips tonight.
You are the disease that's in my life.

If it's no ones fault,
There's just no one to blame and nothing to say.
This time it's no ones fault.
Oh, there's nothing to save and no one to hate.
But I want to so bad.
Believe me.

There's just so many ways you never needed to be.
Like cuts of empty space that never leaves your side.
Now wipe that stupid look off of your face.
You're not the finest one, you're not the only one.
You're just a disease that stains the lips tonight.
You are the disease that's in my life.

If it's no ones fault,
There's just no one to blame and nothing to say.
This time it's no ones fault.
Oh, there's nothing to save and no one to hate.
But I want to so bad.
Believe me.

We're great in small doses
I pronounce it.
You're satisfied loving me.
You're so proud of yourself and your disadvantage to me.
It's just something you love to say.
The greater the dosage makes me mispronouce it to be.
You're dead inside of me.
You're dead inside of me.
But when you're alone.
And no one knows.
It doesn't seem to matter.
You're the same inside of me.

If it's no ones fault,
There's just no one to blame and nothing to say.
This time it's no ones fault.
Oh, there's nothing to save and no one to hate.
If I say I want you so bad.
It doesnt matter.
Dont believe me.
You're just the disease that was in my life

For being so dark I do have a heart that beats more then black, you know? I just wanna rip it out and hold it up for the world to see and scream "I have one to damn it"