Him..........
Posted on: September 30, 2013, at 11:49:38pm

Looking up at the crystal moon I see myself fading away , Away from everybody in this world but nothing I say nor nothing I do can fix anything now its all falling apart all of it., this world and the other one I can see all of it shattering slowly right before my eyes please make it stop I feel wetness on my cheeks what is this...tears....no this can't be not now make it stop "PLEASE!" But no it wont stop every inch of me feels pain and fear and regret........im regretting most of the things I had said to him....to cause him pain in the long run.....but I see now he no longer cares he..just doesn't care he will be marrying sometime soon and I will be falling down the wonderland hole with my arm reached out hand open screaming for help. I feel the waves of darkness and damnation sweeping over me somebody but not anybody (Him) come save me....take me away from this horrible place surrounding my head...my thoughts they keep going they dig deeper into my mind telling me thinks that keep breaking me down "IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN YOU!! YOU WERE ENGAGED TO HIM BUT YOU DESTROYED ALL OF IT EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED IS ALL YOUR FAULT YOU WILL NEVER FIND TRUE HAPPINESS AGAIN YOUR GOING TO DIE ALL ALONE AND NOBODY WILL SAFE YOU NOBODY WILL EVER CARE ABOUT YOU , YOU DESTROY EVERYTHING YOU TOUCH AND YOU DIDNT EVEN CARE THEN BUT WHAT ABOUT NOW HUH? DOES IT HURT?" things I hear in my mind even now as I type I am crying because it is all true I was never able to admit it back then but now I can and its too late its always too late.....if I would have kept one thing I would name grace or malice........but my time has become longer my life longer....not shorter and tears fall as they please and when they please....



remember this......love is everything no matter how many other shall not believe in it but its true.. I had it once now its gone....




- Grace & Harmony