long ass story
Posted on: September 26, 2024, at 08:15:59am

hey, i dont know where we got here, but, i suppoe were here to deep dive until the end.
so lets go.

i was alone, sitting in the corner by myself, with no light to brighten me up, looks like the moon is up there to make it bright up a bit, even then, the brightest star cannot make it bright
enough as it was a billion light years away. the space, the distance, how far have i achieve? how far have i cornered myself? and then, i found my answer, i woke up. it was, me, myself, touching my self
touching my face, my hands, i can't believe i was real for the first time. well, anyways. "huh, i guess that was all a dream". as the sun rises up, the wheat have been prepared in the plate
its purpose is now sitting in acid for hours on end until it dissolves and alarms me to fill it up again. enough of that weird big words i am uing, i showered, and i just sit there, thinking
what would have done, must be done. i say my goodbyes to my parents, the house, the dogs, and cycle for, miles. until i came to this shit shack, such as school. i seriously can't think of
a more nicer thing about it, it was bad for me, and its still is. i can never understand what its all about, all we do is sit there. and that was it. i guess we get free food and breaks.
started off with english, next is science, chemistry, and math. such a busy day today, no homeworks! so i guess that brighten up myself a little bit. theres this program in my school,
an english teset, i was interested by this, kind off. as an almost native speaker that i claimed myself was, i thought this was gonna be easy, it was easy for me, i breezed through it without
a question. and then my results? b2, absolutely b2, i was baffled. the nerve, the audacity. what? what is this score? 434? on englishscore? thats like 785-940 worth of score on TOEFL, i guess thats good.
i was interviewed and then, tomorrow, i came here again, and i saw a paper, and i see myself going to the highest class of this program. oh wow, i guess i am fluent, as a non native. anyways
i got in there, and i was sittin there, by my classmate. i sat there, playing my phone, and my eyes were attached to this one specific girl, her long hair, and eyes, resembling a familiar,
similar character, who could it be? well, i dont know either eh? later though, at break, im watching an anime that was recommended by my online friend, Kimi no Todoke. saw the first episode,
suddenly, my eyes are attached again on this one girl, yeah, she looks like, Sawako?! like, almost spot on, i thought it was the same person. well, shit, i guess i am attached to this one.
the next day, we switched seats because ours got claimed by someone whos earlier, i guess it was aight. than i sat down, there she was, in front of my eyes, in front of me. the english program
goes on and on, all i could see is her hair. like how straight is your hair? like come on, i saw other girls hair, theyre really curvy, but this one was straight, really really straight.
i got distracted, sidetracked, daydreaming. i was stunned when i asked by the teacher "derand! fill in the blank!", i legit cannot answer anything, as i didn't pay any attention
all i did was to stare at that straight hair of her. she turned on me, fortunately, my reflex was fast enough to look at the book instantly when the teacher asked me, so she doesn't suspect
a thing from me. well, i just answered the question with something thats written on the book, and i was right, whew, that was lucky of me. she laughed at me, "why did it took so long for you?"
"i dont know, i was daydreaming, i guess". after that, i locked in, and now answering the questions correctly and accurately. now its break time, i just open up my headphone, and listened
to "I Thought About Killing You". she turned to me, grabbing my phone "whatcha listening to? i thought about killing you? whats this title?" "hey, its a good song, its good music" "kanye
eh? he was great, now he flopped". i mean, she wasn't wrong, his vultures trilogy isn't going well... "well, what do you like?" "i like X, i like this one" she opens up "True Love", now
i knew this song already from Donda 2 leaked, so i sang along with her for a little bit.. and then the bell rings, it is time for us to go back to doing the program thingy. days gone by,
as i watched more kimi no todoke, i started to picture her more into my brain, i didn't took it that seriuosly, probably an intrusive thoughts, as more days come, more attention grabbing
by my phone, and almost a selfie from her, which i said "DAMMIT, I COULDVE GET A SELFIE FROM HER, WHY DID I TOOK IT BACK", from this point on, i realised, i was crushing on her.
mroe days to come, more interactins with her, this time, i got a bit more shy, shy-er? whatever, thats what im feeling. i wasn't feeling myself, i dnt know, my heart just went higher
whenever i see her, well, i gotta keep these thoughts away. now, the program is about to come to an end, in which it ended off with a celebratoin, a perfomance! well, we didn't really
commit to this as others, but we did it anyways. i got a little bit sad, because i can't see her again. we performed it in the auditorium, it was fun, it was great. im sitting there to rest
a bit, she came to me "don't ignore me okay?". i blushed a little bit "alright". well, after that day, we met only in canteen, though we still talk, and sometimes at events, tomorrow though
im gonna go to the cinema, with her, hopefully, well my plan was going to the book store to "accidentally meet her", thats a creepy plan, that is a creepy plan, yk what, im canceling that,
im not gonna go to the book store, im just gonna go to the cinema watching horror movie by myself.

that was all from e

if you read it all, im sorry if my storytelling is bad LMFAO, i never made something like this, and also maybe some situation in there i didn't describe as clearly as i thought it would be
well, i hope you enjoyed my high school love story.

UPDATE :
i cancled my plans going to the cinema, because i am too lazy to move in my death chair, and thus wasting my time for about 4 hours playing horror games

annother one :
i threw away my feelings for school, i am now befriending her and now were best friends, i became her wingman, and shes doing great, it was great having these feelings but considering i am still 15 and, in high school, i gotta focus on whats important, rather than what i want

1. 1: ositzxz369
   Posted at 9:38pm on September 26th, 2024

   When u say the wheat is dissolving in acid, r u calling Milk an acid? What's a test score of B2? What is a "canteen" in this context?
2. 2: derandz
   Posted at 10:22pm on September 26th, 2024

   what i mean is, eating rice, rice is made out of wheat, and it dissovle in our stomach, through acid, and canteen, okay uhhh, uhhhhhhhhhh, in here its a place where we buy food, snacks, and such
3. 3: derandz
   Posted at 10:25pm on September 26th, 2024

   for b2, 434 on englishscore, its worth of 700-900 sumn sumn in toefl, its good i guess
4. 4: derandz
   Posted at 10:25pm on September 26th, 2024

   i tried too hard on this smh 😭
5. 5: WolfTypist
   Posted at 12:47am on September 27th, 2024

   Dude, this is cool. Give me an update lol
6. 6: derandz
   Posted at 6:36am on September 27th, 2024

   aight
   
7. 7: derandz
   Posted at 6:45am on September 27th, 2024

   updated.
8. 8: derandz
   Posted at 6:46am on September 27th, 2024

   fun fact, i wrote all of this while blonde is playing in the background
9. 9: derandz
   Posted at 5:34pm on October 10th, 2024

   updated once again