what's this inside me
a killing machine
it wont stop at nothing
until it must feed
it feeds on the helpless
restless and needy
there is one way to kill it
but it will come at a cost
you must kill me,
and pour out my blood
until evey last drop
is out of my veins
this monster inside me
will rise again

Can you open your eyes
and break them with the truth
or do your eyes remain wide shut
bein the one of many
to not realise reality
red visioned reality

My broken heart howls over an empty body, crashing the silence

what have i become...
as i look at myself in the mirror whiping the blood away fom my face..
i laugh as if nothing is wrong...
but everything is wrong, everything inside me is wrong...
i laugh as the way people once laughed at me...
when they thought i was joking, but now i laugh the day they all died.....................laughing

silence

I’m nothing ...
I never will be...
I trust...
I lose...
I live...
I die....
I hate...
and I live for nothing ...
no one cares ...
I don’t care..
I don’t love.....
I cant..
I’m nothing......
I feel no emotions anymore..
I don’t want to.....
it wont change anything..
why bother...
then when I realize I lived for something..
I died....
they said i did live for something...
i didn’t believe them..
I lived my life in loneliness...darkness....and hatred of sadness
no one liked me so i ignored them...
by:shini-gama

Everything,Nothing,And Forever

I'm tired...
I always will be....
I love....
I hate.....
I see people.....
I stare then start to cry....
I always realize....
People love me......
People hate me.....
But I know they really don’t love me.......
I live my life.....
It never ends....
I want it to all stop...
The problems.....
They never stop.....
I lose control.....
It stops.....
I'm in a black room.......
I open my eyes.....
I see everyone......
Everyone I loved, hated, killed, my family, friends, enemies, and so on....
I get up in a rush and leave....
I've had it with everyone and everything.....
I liked it better in that dark room....
Everyone is so worried about me....
It can't be helped.....
I walk in the pouring rain.....
Looked up at the black sky....
Life doesn't matter ^^.....
...........When will it??
When will people start to care???
NEVER!!!
..........
by shini-gama