Hey! So I had an early release whoo!! So today was easy, except the test that took TWO HOURS. Yeah, uh, no. But I got so happy when my teacher said we had an early release because of the snow.

So we were outside waiting for our bus, and a random ass snow war breaks out.. Guess who started it?! Me! So we were standing and this kid Eyebrows, aka Egzon who's Albanian, is really annoying and loud. So he was being his stupid self and I got annoyed and threw a snowball and it hit directly his head.

Yeah, so onto Johnny. I know I talk about him a lot, but I don't care. So he had a fight with his friend Yeltsin two days ago, and Yeltsin was like AT LEAST I'M NOT DESPERATE ENOUGH TO GO OUT WITH A 16 YEAR OLD. Uh, you're 19 and still in school and got rejected by a 14 YEAR OLD. Shut the fuck up. And Johnny is a few years older, but that's it.. I guess he doesn't like it. I thought he was going to break up with me, I got really sad and worried. But yesterday he was fine and we were happy again! Lol. I don't know about today, since he goes to a different school from a different school district, so yeah.

Okay, onto karate. If you didn't know, I do karate. I'm a black belt actually ;P not lying nor bragging, it's 100% true. Anyways, there's a tournament on Saturday and I'm so excited! Yayz!

Okay, now the serious part. So I know I do more random thoughts more than I play, but it's okay. I consider this my blog because on other sites people actually know me, this is unknown o.o"

How have you been? Comment down below!!

Hey! So you guys know about my boyfriend Johnny ;P Things have been AMAZING!!!! I mean, like I feel happy again. But, there's a thing. He doesn't have good grades, and he thinks he won't have a good future in USA. So, he told his mom he wanted to go to the Honduras, where there's 2 houses he owns.

I really don't want him to leave... I'll end up where I was. I'm trying to keep him here, but I don't know. Suggestions?

Hey! So you know how I told you about Johnny and how I liked him? Well, he told me he liked me Sunday. Oh my god.

I was crying, because how happy I was. He asked me out, and we're dating. I guess I'm his first girlfriend, and he's my first boyfriend I really really care and like. He makes me so happy, and I hope I make him happy.

So about my depression, I told him about it. I think he's trying not to mention my depression by I bring it up when I'm really sad. I guess he has to try finding a way to deal with it.

I'm feeling a little better, trust me :). I bet no one reads these. Just Wunny123. Hi Mikey!

Also I got Cher Llyod tickets! Mikey is trying to get them too. Hopefully he gets them.

That's it for today. K bai.

So, I met Johnny on ps3 3 years ago. We barely talked, but we talked once in a while. I added him on facebook once too. Then, in August we started playing black ops 2 with each other. I bought a mic, and we would mic. Then, September came, and we couldn't talk to much on ps3, so we'd text. And text, and text. He sorta made me happy, reminded me of how I was without depression.

So we had these nicknames for each other, I'd call him lil mama and he'd call me big daddy. It was just a hilarious joke, and I guess his mom over-heard him saying 'big daddy' and looked through his texts a lot, and he got tired of it.. So he told me we couldn't speak anymore. It really hurt me.

That night, my depression came rushing in. I cried myself to sleep, and I cut. I loved him so much.. Few months passed and I added Johnny's friend Yeltsin. I messaged Yeltsin a lot and I confessed I missed Johnny. He helped me talk to Johnny again, and me and Johnny talk, but I'm not as happy.

I cut yesterday and today, but just a slit. Don't worry. I'm fine :')

Hey! I needed time to myself. Sorry. So, update on my life. Johnny, I think I mentioned him before, if I didn't I'll write about it in the next thought. His friend, Yeltsin, (russian name) talked to me and we are currently talking, helping each other out with our depression problems. I broke up with my boyfriend Matt, and I just noticed we have been together for two months. Two months of him using me for sexual interaction, and two months of me hurting. He was so sexual, I couldn't deal with it anymore. Let me give an example what I mean. One day, I was upset about some assholes in school. He randomly starts talking about strip clubs and me being a stripper. WTF?! I couldn't take it, so I told him it should end. He supposedly was crying, but honestly in reality he was probably okay. I was the mess. Why am I the mess every time?!

Okay, onto school. So this kid named Andrew, we talked and hung out a lot during school. This girl named Tina, obviously liked Andrew. She literally HATES me! The hilarious part is I knew her longer than she knew Andrew. I knew her since kindergarten, he met her this year. Anyways, is it weird that I get dreams of me like dating, kissing, etc.? I feel like that means he likes me back or something. But one day, this asshole named Julian screamed out to Andrew that he liked me and Andrew got mad and said that was a lie, I got silent and I was sort of upset I guess.

Also, we had February tutoring during our break and my grandma picked me up. Now, she has an old car. I know, I know. But she can't afford anything else because she had lots of surgeries. Julian, was making fun of it. I walked out to the car and he screamed "Tell your grandma to get a new car!" and I flipped him off. He flipped me off and this other kid Lamarqus flipped me off too. They also screamed that I should kill myself.-. I was liek wow....

Anyways, I'm depressed and they don't know. They don't know that suicide is always on my mind, etc.

Now, the happy part! Today there's a party at 6 P.M., and my bestfriend Wunny123 is coming too! I can't wait to see him!!!

Okay! If you want me to put the story about Johnny up I will! :D