So I actually sorta cut yesterday, I was thinking of suicide and I just couldn't anymore. I thought about how small the amount of people who would miss me, and how large the number of haters that there was.. So i cut. It was on my wrist, and I'm trying best as I can to hide it. Trust me. :c It hurts and idk if I want to continue cutting or stop today. But it is what it is, right? Btw I had an anxiety attack during karate.. I had to lead the warm ups and this kid, who thinks I like him (lol no?) was talking and I told him "Is there something you want to share?" And he said "no," and me and him had to fight and his friends were laughing at me, and I couldn't breathe and then I had to sit down or I would've gotten knocked out.

So yesterday I was at my grandmas ^~^ It was really fun. I stayed up until 3 A.M. talking to Johnny,and listening to music. My friend came over my grandmas, she was talking to her boyfriend Edwin the whole time -.- But oh well. After she left, I came back home! My grandma has to do some paper work and then I get my stuff and sleep over her house again!

Okay so does it bother anyone I use this as a blog rather than going on blogspot.com? I heard many people use it, but I don't know. I think my blogging is already boring :/ Btw i have a tumblr!

~ http://thatgamernerdddd.tumblr.com/ ~

check it out o:

Hai errbodyy :3 whats up? I'm in a bubbly/ depressing mood. For one min, I'm sad, other minute I'm happy! I think it's just because I'm bipolar 0.o ohh whellll, anyways listen to this song by Black Veil Brides! It's called Lost it All. Link to it is~ please check it out! K bai c;

Oh I forgot to write last time, I actually explained to Johnny what I did about to prank and we're buddies :D We're soon planning to do a guitar and voice duo! Lmao. Btw im writing a song and I NEED HELP AND IDEAS T^T If I post it will ANYONE help?!

So me and Peter broke up. Yeah. He was ignoring me and hanging out with this other girl I hate, and I asked her or me. He picked her! When I found out, I was BEYOND heartbroken.

Johnny was there to help, which I'm glad for. Soon him and I are gonna do a voice and guitar duo over the song, Knives and Pens, by BVB. Check it out!