Her: I have a special someone…but I don’t think he knows I exist.
He is on the complete other side of the planet, so he is far away…
The stars call him the Sun, but that’s all I know.

Him: I have a special someone…but I don’t think she knows I exist.
She’s on the complete other side of the planet, so she is far away…
The stars call her the Moon, but that’s all I know.

Her: His light shines brightly…but I don’t think he sees me, because it’s not strong enough.
Strangely, today he shines so little.
It’s a shame it doesn’t shine because his light makes the skies look beautiful.

Him: Her light is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
It isn’t bright, but when I see it, I feel so relaxed, like I’m so at peace.
My light is just boring and dull…a light that just lights up the planet.

Both: There is a rumor going around throughout the stars.
They say a special moment where we will meet together.
It’s called the “Eclipse.”

This special event only comes two times a year.
I’ve never heard of such event of noticed at all.
But for this special day I must prepare.

Her: I need to arrange my best stars around me.
So I can have beautiful lights surrounding me.
But I’m scared I won’t be what he likes.

Him: I need to get my rays brighter, so I can see how beautiful she is.
I will admit; I am very nervous to meet her.
Because I’m scared I won’t be what she likes.

Both: The day is soon to come, but I am not ready.
But we have to meet, I can feel it inside me.
It’s going to be perfect.

Her: I can see how it would be if it were right this moment.
I would feel the warmth of his light and feel so happy.
Compliment him on how wonderful his shine is.

Him: I can see how it would be if it were right this moment.
I would tell her how beautiful she is and let her know I love her.
Tell her that she is my world and has my heart.

Both: The day is tomorrow, and soon we shall meet.
How I love you so much.
And I can’t wait for us to meet at last.
Her: Just a few minutes and I will see him.
Him: Just a few minutes and I will see her.
Both: And that moment came.

None: They valued their time, and spent it wisely.
Getting to know each other and confessing their love to each other.
When they said their goodbyes, they were both sad.

But their love is everlasting because no one can interfere.
Together they dance around the earth and get together with so little.
But those who are together so little can appreciate their time together.

Stars will shoot across the sky just to send messages to each other.
Those stars represent the love these two have.
And that is why we make wishes upon shooting stars.

While the moon and the sun have a connection.
Together they create day and night.
And complete each other perfectly.

They try hard to make it work.
They don’t give up.
Just a true love should be.

-Sika 6/28/13

There’s always something that lies in your heart,
It can be pain, love, problem or maybe even someone.
It may not be there every day or every week,
But when it comes to your mind, it becomes a long memory.
A memory of whoever or whatever it is.
And when it comes up in your mind, you try to avoid it and ignore it.
It’s like you try to shut a mental door to that memory.
But the door seems to never close.
You keep trying and trying for days, months and years.
Yet it still remains there in your mind and heart.
And remain in denial about it and turn away from it.
When you try dealing with it, your mind just gets confused as to what you should do.
You hesitate and wonder if it’s best to turn your back.
You constantly keep pushing the door as you think about this.
If you are strong enough, then in time you will close it
But if you aren’t, then that memory will keep haunting you.
And that memory will hurt people around you too if it involves or effects them.
It’s a constant mental battle to keep it in.
Don’t give in if it’s a good memory that leads to a bad memory,
Or if its just a bad memory in general.
Turn away from it and keep going on in life,
Stay where you are.
Because they say you never know what you have until you lose it.
You could have a good job, life, lover, family and you don’t even know it.
But if you hurt it and lose it, then getting it back can be very hard.
Just be careful what you say and how you are,
Because you could be hurting it.
Life is a battle and sometimes you have to fight yourself to prevent any pain to anyone.
Just remember the memories you have are always there,
Whether you close some of them or not is up to you.
But just know that going back to those memories can hurt others.
Don’t give, be strong and close the door and learn to keep it closed.
Otherwise, rip the bandaid off it before you make it worse.
Because time makes it worse.

-Sika
5/1/14

Imagine a world where everything has to be done a certain way,
A way that is considered the “right” way
And if you didn’t go through like the “right” way then you would be shunned out of the world and into the outside world.
Any other way was always considered the wrong way so hardly anyone dared to do it a different way.
This world was inside a glassroom; where the inside can see the outside world, reality.

A girl decided to go a different way,
Because she couldn’t stand the vicious cycle of being judgmental and needing to be perfect.
Any little thing she thought she did, was always wrong.
Often she would stand at one of the glasswalls and look at the outside world, wondering what’s out there.
She felt sheltered for so long and couldn’t bare being suffocated into the room anymore.
But she didn’t know anyone in the outside world so she remained inside the glassroom.

For many years she held in her feelings and tried to be strong.
She felt like a failure in life even though over and over she kept trying to be perfect.
But her effort wasn’t good enough and kept getting criticized.
Often she was compared to others in the glassroom, belittling her even more,
But the world inside the glassroom didn’t know this was happening to her.

For many years she kept looking forward to getting out the glassroom,
But couldn’t bare the thoughts of leaving her home.
She didn’t even know anyone in the outside world,
Well nobody she could depend on.
But she kept looking and looking out the glasswalls, until someone in the outside world caught her eye.

The person she found interesting seemed to be very nice, responsible, and loyal.
She started knocking at the wall hoping to get his attention, which she did.
He turned around and looked at her confusingly, not understanding what was going on.
She motioned him to come to the wall, so he walked up to her.
She looked at him and smiled as he looked at her, but they had no way of communicating.

She tried speaking but he couldn’t hear her.
He tried talking to her, but she couldn’t read his lips.
She tried doing charades, but he couldn’t make out what she was trying to say.
They kept trying and trying but yet nothing seemed to work.
But then he motioned her to wait one moment and he ran off into the outside world.

She watched him run, looking forward to his return, yet afraid he wouldn’t come back.
Time went by and he still hadn’t showed up,
So she began to walk away and continue on with her life.
When she heard a knock on the wall and turned around.
And there he stood, with a marker in his hand.

He wrote on the wall, “Hello…”
She looked around for a marker yet couldn’t find anything,
So she ran off to look for a marker as well and came back to the wall as soon as possible.
She responded, “Hi. :)”
And from there on they started to talk.

She asked him how the outside world while she explained to him what her world was like.
Everyday they talked at the same spot and she had no shame in talking to someone from the outside world.
Even though it was not the “right” way.
She didn’t care anymore because she felt like she found her own right way.
But she still remained inside the glassroom.

She was afraid of going out there with him,
Because going out there meant she had to depend on him, something she isn’t used to.
She had only depended on her own family because she tried many times to depend on someone outside yet they never came through.
She had lost trust in the people out there in the real world.
So she remained in the glassroom even though she was falling apart in it.

He could see in her smile that she was truly unhappy inside,
But he could tell in her eyes that she was afraid.
So he just stood by her side, reading her frustration with her facial expressions.
Tried to comfort her when she cried.
Yet he knew it was all up to her.

One day she came late and he sat there waiting for her,
But she never showed up, and inside he was worried about her,
Yet wondered lately if she had given up because lately he kept getting the feeling that she would never follow through.
He waited and waited and still nothing, so he left for the day,
Hoping she would be there the next day.

When he went to the wall, there she stood, broken inside.
She didn’t notice he was there so he knocked on the wall and she looked up at him.
With tears in her eyes, but this time she seemed more hurt than usual.
Yet he didn’t know that in her mind she was beginning to think about truly going out there,
But it still broke her inside and the more she thought about it, the more she cried.

She didn’t say anything to him and just walked away from the wall.
He watched her walk away and disappear into the glassroom so he began to walk away as well.
He kept walking, thinking about what he could do, which he knew was nothing but wait.
And she kept thinking and thinking, but couldn’t decide.
And she felt the longer she waited, the more he considered on leaving.

The two kept walking away from the wall deep in thought.
Until a huge anger inside of her built up.
She knew she was ready to go, it was now or never.
So she grabbed the nearest rock, turned around and threw it at the glasswall, shattering it.
The sound was loud enough for him to hear and he ran to the noise, worried about her.

As he ran towards to the shattered wall, a figure showed up.
It was her, in person, in the flesh, shocked with what she had done.
She couldn’t stand on her feet and just fell onto her knees crying.
He kept running to her and she began to crawl towards him.
Glass started cutting her hands and legs as she crawled to him but she didn’t care…she had to get out.

The people inside the glassroom saw her leaving and tried to run and get her,
But she crawled away for dear life, not wanting to go back.
He finally reached her before her people could and picked her up into his arms.
She began to sob and held onto him and he just remained quiet, letting her tears roll down her cheeks.
He loved her and she loved him, and the two knew that nothing could stop them.

When the people inside the glassroom saw her with him,
They looked at her with disgust and shame,
Judging her on her choice and condemning her to failure.
But she didn’t care, because she knew in her heart that she was going to make it perfectly fine in the outside world.
And for the first time in her life, she felt completed, happy and KNEW she was going to be successful with or without the people in the glassroom.

-Sika 3/14

Life is like a tunnel.
There are many different routes and exits.
But only one way fits for you.
When your life begins, so does the tunnel.
And when you walk into the tunnel, people will enter with you.
The people who entered with you may not be the same ones that come out with you.
Because life is a process...one where you slowly grow.
Some people will take steps back, forward or turn left and right,
Your path is your path.
People come and go.
They will disagree with your decisions on which way to go and will turn their backs to you,
But sometimes those who went a different way, end up connecting with yours again.
Life is a mystery; you never know what to expect,
But just keep going.
NEVER let anyone stop you from growing.
And if people choose to go with you, then let them follow.
Maybe their path goes along with yours,
But just know the choices you make can be a mistake or your path.
If its a mistake, you turn back and choose a different path.
Just remember one thing as you go down this tunnel.
Those that come with you through most of your journey,
Are the ones that support and love you no matter what...
And are the ones that are meant to be in your life.
Love them and show appreciation to those who tried to be in your life and remain in your life.
As for the others that turn away are upset at you for not doing things the way they want you to do it.
Those people are selfish and don't see the big picture.
Appreciate them still but remember the main goal:
The goal of coming out as yourself and not as someone that isn't you.

-Sika 4/2/14

A girl waking up for a big day.
Has so much to look forward to.
Jumps out of bed thinking of what she will say.
She had so many plans, if he only knew.
Showers, blow dries, and curls her hair.
Puts on a pink bow and her blue dress, with flats that are black.
He may not think looks matter but she did care.
She kept her head high and smiled, never holding back.
Did the final touch, her makeup.
Putting on foundation to make her look flawless.
Put on blush to make her face light up.
Mascara to lengthen her eye lashes and eye liner to bring out her eyes.
She grabs her bag and walks out the door, feeling confident.
Opens her car door and sits herself inside.
Thinking about how it would be, how he would react and if he will even be able to compliment.
He might be speechless and move to the side.
It would be the first time they have met and she will just chuckle and smile.
Kiss him on the cheek and blush.
To get to the moment she was waiting for, she had to drive so many miles.
Just to come see him, and she knew this wasn't any normal crush.
Only problem was...she didn't know exactly how to get to his place...
Along the way she asked for directions to get to her destination.
She continued around town, and a smile came out from every face.
Nobody minded helping her and nothing stopped her dedication.
She was parked across his house and Texted her lover, "get dressed hun, I have a surprise for you at your door. I love you."
She git out of the car and, looked both ways and started to cross the street when suddenly a fast car came out of no where and hit her side.
Her lover heard the crash....if the poor guy only knew...
Thinking he could help; he dashed outside.
He looks at the car and sees the driver of the car that came out of no where.
The driver points to the his car and the lover pulls out his phone to call.
He sees the message from the girl, and read it slowly.
He had missed the text message and little rain drops began to fall.
His eyes look up at the car and ran to it praying that it wasn't her he would see.
Devastated to see her at his feet
Reached for her hand as tears began to roll down, as he started to feel an empty space.
If only she had told him that she wanted to meet.
He opened his eyes and looked at her face.
Wishing she could open eyes but knew that will never be.
His emptiness grew even more as he started to cry
If only he had looked at the message sooner, when didn't he see.
His lover, who he no longer, wish she didn't have to die.
He felt a deep depression.
The ambulance came and to take her away.
But before they did he kissed her deeply.
The ambulance took her and thought about the things he wanted to say.
There was one thing he had to say, "I love you as much as you loved me."
He looked at the bed that had her body covered but no response, he felt regret.
Wishing he had read the message and ran out the door sooner.
Because their eyes would have met.
He would have seen the car and called out to her.
Telling her to stay because of a car, but he didn't.
If only their eyes had met...

-Sika

1.15.13