cant stop
cant stop the cops!
we're the best in the galaxy!
chao cerulea!

i just have to say how much i love people.
okay, i know i say i hate them so much all the time because of their whole 'peopleness' and being human*GAG* and such, but lately i love people.

like people who somehow know my name and i have no idea how. like people who know my screename and i have no idea how. it makes me feel known -- like it matters, but i still like it ^^
and being noticed at homecoming by that amazing girl who waved to me with her stunning grin.. i know i sound bisexual, but i swear i's not!
but just watching her about her day and reading what shes written.. talk about a stalkerfest - im ending here!- but shes still amazing

and that one kid im growing to like more and more. he just seems amazing :D i want to hang out with him to climb things and have a caffeine rush so i can get that natural high and we can have amazing times.
i need to start making new memories.
and that other freshman, whatever. the fact that he called me hot made me laugh x]

i love highschool musical twoHAHA. as hormone drained and unlike real life it tends to be, i still like it alot.

homecoming was insane. draining emotionally and physically. and now im left with pained calves [not sheep, matthias] and it makes me feel like a wuss.
dang techno ^^
but seriously im just getting sick of his stupidity now.
slowdance with ben! yay! and the only one all night hehe

dreams scare me.
like the one where that random kid confessed his love for me in our old now-amazing garage
and like the one last night where it was along the same lines of two other dreams. but the phone, and the church, and the.. *shiver* creepsies

i love getting new shirts that make me feel adorable.
and wow i wanna run on those golfing greens SO badly. i could get such a high from that ^^!!

so mai randomness is done nao x]

although none of them will see this, this is a shout out to all of my random friends who cared last night at the football game. words cant express what a relief i have knowing that i have you guys to lean on. sure things arent the best, but with friends like this to hold you up.. maybe i'll be alright.

my guardian angel -- i love you. words cannot express how much i have to thank you just for listening to me and holding me when shit happens. you are amazing. you will get the perfect guy too.

special thanks to those few random friends namely sarah, jake, and gary who cared as well. okay maybe not gary so much : ]

but extreme thanks goes to bailey. i dont hate you or dislike you. in fact you are amazing. thank you for just listening. you'll never know how much you surprised me last night..

still thinking, still praying, still hoping, but at least i have friends like these ^^
.. my the fact that dreams are insane and scare the crap out of me.

i cant even explain how amazing things have been lately.
ive had this crazy undeniable joy all week -- but i blame God for that ^^!

oh for petes sake just go here and it explains better.. i dont have time to type -- nachotime 0.0
http://weblog.xanga.com/stareyedchild/616942859/signature-of-divine.html

face down in the dirt
you said i had enough.
you said i was all you wanted.
you said no other girl could take my place.
thanks for the lies.

crying in her shoulder last night, listening to her words, i dont know if i could even tell you what i need to say.
oh of all the words i cannot say.
its not like we're dead --
more like love buried alive.

these three words used to mean everything.. now they mean nothing at all.
i love you.. too.
and its not going away.

i want to close my eyes and make believe that i never found you.

dont act like an angel -- youve fallen again. youre no superhero; ive found in the end.
broken and betrayed...its the same old story.

..this is the closest ive ever been.

things today were something like this

ga;net.kant.en;agn;qntgq;845924yhq4tnuilgnjakgna.gndjanj^^-.-!1!!

and i mean that in a good way :D