this is my dream....it won't go away....
Posted on: July 7, 2007, at 04:22:22am

happiness, pure bliss surrounds as i walk through the doorway without a sound. husband, father, lover, he is many things to me. My children run in the yard, their angelic voices laughing sweetly as i smile, sitting in my small garden of paradise, my world complete. surely the darkness of the past cannot reach me here, never i say. suddenly, i wake up. my paradise is lost, my imagination run wild. it was nothing more than a dream...nothing more. i look around to find you gone, taking the children with you. i sit here, cluthing my knees as i hear the words revolve around and around in my mind, a never-ending spiral of agony. cancer, a disease upon mankind, slowly eating away at me. i sit here alone, in this house, without a shred of hope, oh what irony. there never was a paradise, i sit here and cry, waiting for the dream to subside. breath slowly fading, i slowly die, waiting for the dream to subside. i do not wake, i feel my mind's last pull as my life flashes before my eyes. there is no more feeling now, as i stare at myself with uncaring sight. vision fading, darkness surrounding, i die.

yeah, this dream i had about a year ago, back when i had issues with cancer and being alone. now, i've had it for two nights in a row. most people dont die in their dreams, but i do. that's how i see it...i want it to stop....