Random Rant (journal entry i made awhile back)
Posted on: March 29, 2009, at 01:25:24pm

Sometimes I feel like the unluckiest guy on earth. Having an easy-going attitude did not exactly put me in the best places. People kick me around and take advantage of me because they know they can. just go with the flow so I guess people found it easier to make use of me. It hurts especially when the ones doing so are the ones you love . My very first experience of losing a person I really love was a year back. She was one of the best friends I had and we were practically inseparable. We would spend all night talking and we would hang out after school. I never really realized that she wanted something out of me. I never really noticed that what she want was not my friendship but instead, getting popular. She got what she wanted and out the window I was. Losing her, has made me really scared of losing people that I love because I'm scared I might get the same treatment over and over again. I'm rather scared to socialize now. I keep whatever little friends I have. Though, I'm taking step by step to pluck up some courage and say "Alright. I'm going to make the best out of friendship I make now and learn from past mistakes." But then again, easier said than done, right? , i have a very lovely girlfriend right now and i know that she wont end up treating me the same way as my ex , i love her way more then i did my ex and my heart belongs to her forever.

1. 1: Kitty-Luvr
   Posted at 1:28pm on March 29th, 2009

   Wow. You have lots to say.
2. 2: Mariposa86
   Posted at 9:10pm on March 29th, 2009

   Thats good, I know how it feels too. But people have brought me up. yeah its hard to trust at times, but you just gotta fight it and if you fail again, keep getting up. Don't give up. Like my main motto is at the moment and it has not that much to do with this, but don't complain, do something about it! Don't give up!
3. 3: Blade2030
   Posted at 9:40pm on March 29th, 2009

   thats good advice , im surprised people are actually reading this ,although i knew you would =)
4. 4: thatsexykid1
   Posted at 1:20pm on March 30th, 2009

   dude im actually tearin up thats so bogus man
5. 5: Blade2030
   Posted at 1:53pm on March 30th, 2009

   yeah , it hurt , but i got friends like you guys posting on this to keep me up =)
6. 6: sikavonangel
   Posted at 9:14am on June 25th, 2012

   I should take my own advice for a change.