This pain is endless
it slowly brings me down
it bends my knees
send me to the ground

I begin to wonder
where this pain comes
and can i try
to find what its from

this pain it hurts
it hurts me so
i just wish
i could let someone know

I try to keep feelings
hidden deep inside
their only escape
is when i cry

crying frees my soul
from this dwelling pain
making my body feel
normal again

But normal only lasts
as long as you hide
the feelings that are
eating you from inside

They eat you from inside
and tear your thoughts away
they can almost have you
not make it through the day

They tear you down
you build back up
Im about to quit
and give it up

to stop this pain
and end this sorrow
so i wont feel
worse tomorrow

I can end it so quick
can end it all so fast
so i can finally
see peace at last

So I can end this pain
and end my thoughts
all my actions
that i have brought

upon myself
that hurt me more
makes my heart and brain
feel so sore

Im so tired of fighting
im about to give up
im about to sit back
and call it enough

im done with this pain
im done letting it hurt me
some times i wish
it would leave me be

id show you my feeling
let you see my thoughts
but i dont want
you to get caught

in this twisted maze
in this endless drop
into depression
i wish it'd stop

I wish i could end this
with out saying goodbye
the only end i see
is for me to die

i dont want to let go
of everyone and everything
for im in fear of the pain
that death will bring

(CJC)

I want to just see you
So i can be there
I want to just hold you
To show that i care

I want to be there
To wipe away the tears
To get rid of your troubles
And end all your fears

I want to make
Your every dreams come true
All because
I love You

I hate seeing you sad
And cant make it end
I just want to see you
Smile again

I love You
And want you to be
Able to sit there
And talk to Me

And try to cheer You up
Make You to feel good
I really wish
That I could

I Love You

All this darkness comes around
creeps within without a sound
the pain it brings it hurts me so
the way i feel no one knows

i sit here in all this sorrow
looking forth for the light of tomorrow
ill try to push it all away
and live this life another day

i kill my self inside
for the rules of life i dont abide
i cannot take this life of mine
im getting hurt all of the time

i sit here in all this sorrow
looking forth for the light of tomorrow
ill try to push it all away
and live this life another day

whats the point..

Why bother with love
Why bother with life
Why not just end it all
With the blade of a knife

Whats the point in living
We are all going to die
Whats the point in happiness
Where's the reason to cry?

Theres no point in existing
No point in our being
No point to emotions
Nor all of these feelings

No point in happiness
No point in pain
All your feelings
Turnout being the same

It'll never be worth it
Smiling all the time
Your just hiding thoughts
You keep in your mind

We spend our life growing
And spend our life dying
Every second is wasted
Wasted away
Its even enough to make me say
Whats the point in trying

its like ive lost everything
lost it all at one time
lost all i had
lost what i thought was mine

lost someone close
some one near
someone i held
so close and dear

i said id always be there
but now we're torn away
and their feelings for me
are probibly begining to fray

i didnt mean to do this
i wouldnt do it to you
never on purpose
please get that much is true


i know you'll probibly read this
but i dont know what you'll think
just writing in this state of mind
it makes my heart sink

i want you to be happy
but i dont know what to do
im sorry about the pain
and im sorry for hurting you