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Posted on: February 7, 2012, at 01:48:24am
Over the past few years, I have been experiencing depression, delay in motor skill and twitches/involuntary muscle movements. I didn't think it was much, so a couple years back I went to my family doctor for a check-up. Dr. Takar said it was nothing and told me not to worry, they said it was a "normal teenage thing" and "probably stress related".
I went again last year because the severity didn't increase, but it didn't decrease either. She told me the same thing; it was stress related and may have something to do with my job and school; stress.
In the past few months though, I was experiencing trouble sleeping and much deeper depression (suicidal thoughts); I decided it was time to go to a different doctor to get a difference of opinion. Well, he reluctantly explained there was definitely something wrong, and wanted to run some blood tests. It's been 3 weeks, and I had went in today to get my results. He explained what I had. Early onset symptoms of huntingtons chorea, which immediately left me devestated, on the verge of tears.
I was reluctant on whether or not to make this post, as I do not like sympathy nor expect it. I don't even want to believe what he told me; he gave me a bunch of medical bullshit I didn't care about. I doubt I'll tell my family about this. I just want to tell you all that if you even THINK you're a little sick, go see your doctor immediately. Even nothing can be something..
Despite this, I will continue to play FFR and continue to go to school. I won't be able to fulfill my career as a cardiologist, but at least I can make the journey for as long as I can. Fuck.