New girlfriend and not playing for a week

[eVILPeeR]

So I broke up with my girlfriend and I got all depressed and I didn't bother with any Bemani really for like a week and I played today.. and well, I improved randomly. Here's the scores:

[illezt]

PR and K8107 are pretty bad =\

Nice MA on Doku and injection of love.

You have the MA, now you just have to work on your index speed.

[justaguy]

fukin emo

[ThEclipse]

wait, new girlfriend?




wth r u

[eVILPeeR]

K here's the story.
Sunday, I get back from a week long trip to BC. I spend the day with Carolyn. I get large amounts of big hints that she really has no feelings for me, and I start to get a little dissappointed. I told her that day, "*sigh* listen, I don't know why I'm so dissappointed.. but.. I think it's just because you have no feelings for me.. and I just don't know how much longer I can wait." Carolyn: "Well, I mean.. it's just something I have to do on my own, you know?" Me: "Alright..". So the night time rolls by.. and I am feeling like HORRIBLE shit. Like wow, I feel like crap.. seriously, when you realize that you have to break-up with the person you love, knowing they don't love you back, and the fact that they won't even care that the relationship will be over, it REALLY sucks.

Right, so I talked to my dad and a few other people about it, and everyone agreed that I should just break-up with her. This is where it gets interesting.. while making this decision, one person whom I was talking about it to openly admitted she had a crush on me. She said she would have told me earlier, but she knew I had a girlfriend at the time and she didn't even want to tell me now (I had managed to pull it out of her) because it seemed like she was just trying to go out with me now that I was going to be single. I know her quite well enough to know she isn't desperate in any way and would not have asked me out just because I just broke up with my girlfriend, etc etc. So, I'm feeling much better after this knowing I have somebody to look forward to even though I'm about to lose the one I love.

Next morning rolls by.. I call Carolyn and tell her to come meet me at my locker as it's extremely important.
I tell her I'm breaking up with her, and as suspected, she didn't really care. Infact she figured it was time anyways because the last two weeks were killing her somehow? I don't know, I still don't know but I'll find out. Anyways.. so that happens. She leaves.. we kiss for our last time =((( and then I go to my class...

I realized about 15 minutes after breaking up with her what I had done, what I had just lost, and what had just really happened. It hit me so hard that I fell asleep in English Class. I couldn't keep my head up, I just couldn't handle the amount of depression all at once. It was pretty bad, and my teacher unfortunately didn't approve of it either. Right.. the day rolls by, and me and Carolyn had decided to actually still hang out after school anyways. I told her that I would just like to be a couple until the end of the day, to officially end it, because I just needed that one last day with her. Just one more day.

After school goes by, I play some ITG and feel a bit better. Carolyn comes around.. and well, this made me think of what I lost once again.. and I just became really sad. I couldn't even hold my emotions in that well, and I just grabbed her and started crying uncontrollably. I felt like shit, I told her how I feel and everything. I told her that I wanted her, and it was a shame that she was just too young and that all of the reasons that I was breaking up with her revolved around her age. I guess she must have felt bad too, because when I left to go to the bathroom to clean my face up she talked to my friends and told them she felt bad that I had to cry about her, and the fact that she just couldn't return the feelings no matter how hard she tried.

I managed to cheer up somewhat on Monday afternoon, but I was mostly still depressed. When I did get home though from seeing Carolyn, I burst into tears again because of how depressed I was. It was incredibly shocking.. I just couldn't take the pain, the thought of never being with her again.. and the fact that I could no longer act on my feelings for her, and I had to hold back. I couldn't hold her, look into her eyes and just be amazed at her beauty, or just stare at her amazing body.. nothing.. gosh I miss it. What really got me crying though, was for some weird reason on my Winamp playlist the song me and her chose together started playing (and it has over 600 songs, on shuffle). It felt terrible. Breaking up is NOT easy. I've never felt SO horrible in all of my life.

Next day.. well, it's tuesday morning. I wake up and I feel like SHIT. Oh man, no change from the previous day. I trudge through the day, and I even saw Carolyn in person and I just ran away.. I couldn't even look at her. I just couldn't. I saw her and I remembered all of the things that had happened the previous day, and I knew if I stayed long I would start crying, and I didn't want that. I was sick of thinking about her constantly and just all that crap. So the day goes by.. I get home.. and I cry my eyes out once again. This time for not as long though, and I did feel QUITE good afterwards. I felt like myself finally. I was so sick of being depressed and sad all the time, and I don't remember what made me feel so good, but it was probably my new girlfriend. I talked to her about it and she helped me feel better about it.

Right, so about 5:30pm rolls by and Robbyzero and Lej invite me out for some ITG/DDR and whatnot. I'm feeling great, so I went out and had some fun. No difference there, I get home, talk to my new girlfriend (whom I shall now refer to as Ciara) and I'm feeling good as new.

Morning comes by, and I'm still feeling good. Of course, I was tired and crap but I wasn't thinking about Carolyn negatively. Instead I was thinking more about Ciara, which is a good thing. I managed to even talk to Carolyn for a couple minutes, and be normal. Though after talking to her, I started to get the feelings of missing her back. This made me feel kind of crappy, but Ciara cuddled with me and that made me feel a bit better. The day ends, and I am expected to go to the mall and play some DDR or whatever with Robbyzero and Lej again. So, off I go. My friend tagged along, too. I owned DDR quite well I might add. 15 greats Max 300 and 27 Greats LoM Mirror. I feel like myself again, and I'm doing quite good. I'm pretty tired now, though.

Tomorrow should be even better. It's getting easier, and easier. I still yearn for some time to spend with Carolyn, though. I really miss her still, and I still want to see her and talk to her one on one and just get some things off of my mind because she is probably the only one who can really understand.

So there you have it. That is why I have a new girlfriend.

And, comments on my scores? I would just like to know how I'm improving, and what I should play to maybe help that along.

[ThEclipse]

Woah sorry about that dude.



At least you had women waiting in line for you though =/



anyways the GB Song Oni is pretty good but work on the Shining Collection

[DukAmok]

you should be able to AAA doku soon, so thatll be a nice score to have with that MA.

GBS Heavy is quite nice, both PA+MA wise.

the others i either dont have or are too hard for me to judge accurately since i suck at them.

but for starting index, these rock.


on gf: that sucks dude. well at least you have Ciara there.

[justaguy]

hey man, i guess i can kinda feel with you on the crying thing, i burst into tears hard when i thought my relationship was going to end. sounds like a rough ride, glad ya pulled through.

[Ardor]

Jeff is a ladies man and he is just beggining to realize it, but yeah he is strong thanks to my superduper advice and awesome friendship I have to offer :P

[Anuj]

girls =\

[ThEclipse]

Originally Posted by Anuj

girls =\

Quoted for fucking emphasis.

[Ardor]

Yeah he forgot to mention my name a few too many times when he says he played ITG/DDR to relax but yeah :P


Pretty decent scores though. I seen Jeff play index, pretty good.

[Anuj]

LoM Mirror is tough... I do way worse on Mirror then I do on it normally... so props to you on that, unless you somehow do better on it mirror then nonmirror =\

And wtf Jeff, stop getting so good at ddr =\
and hopefully I'll see this new gf of yours sometime soon=\

To conclude: =\

[Ardor]

It was sick though, he got 2 One More Extra Stages..so badass.

And I AA'dMax300 today too w00t ONLY 2 miss

[Anuj]

wtf, you did NOT AA max 300...
wtf
wtf
wtf
wtf
damnit, you're better then me now :P

[Ardor]

Haha I did AA it, 2 miss and 60 something greats.

[eVILPeeR]

Don't worry, I didn't fail to mention your name. Check out my MSN blog. If I was going to mention people who supported me, I would have mentioned quite a few people =p But your name is not without recognition, Rob. Yes you did help out a lot =) And that's important to me.

And yea.. I don't know why I did so well yesterday. Must have been a fluke? Who knows, maybe I can SDG Max 300 or something.

[PsYcHoZeRoSk8eR]

good scores, just hope the future won't be so bad with the ladies
do u have any pics of ur ddr/itg sessions cuz those scores are great

[Benny1]

WTF at juggernaut, it's a lot worse than the others.
At least I think it is.

[HOHddrfreak]

crap man... that sux. I'm glad that this place isn't full of idiotic 12-year-olds that would just as quickly shout "ha, love is for jerks." I'm starting to realize why i quit runescape.

dangit ardor i can't even pass MAX300. on 1st stage i can keep my bar alive to the freeze steps, then my legs give way and i fall onto the cold... metal... floor.