09-1-2019, 11:23 AM | #81 | |
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As far as life stuff: put in a spoiler to as to not stretch the page. This still leaves a shitton out, to be honest. But it serves as a good summary of things. |
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09-1-2019, 11:47 AM | #82 | |||
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yay you did it thanks for sharing halogen
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i don't think anyone overshared really 'cause it's hard to over share when you're asked to post your entire life. though i get that it makes you feel vulnerable. i've had to let go of that personally 'cause i had to reach out for help earlier this year Quote:
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09-1-2019, 01:05 PM | #83 |
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Guess since people are opening up about a lot of stuff, I should make the attempt, though I'm still going to have to leave some stuff out.
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09-1-2019, 01:26 PM | #84 |
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the short of it is that the source of my childhood trauma is my father coming out as trans ~15 years ago or so, and the immense pain that entire process caused in myself, my sister, and my mother especially
given what I know about the denizens of this site, I've really been waffling about whether or not it's a good thing to share those experiences here. because there are a lot of unhappy, miserable truths about the trans experience. I'm not transphobic, and this trauma came to help me understand the LGBT experience as a child, but I'm not sure if it's "right" to share |
09-1-2019, 01:29 PM | #85 | |
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Nor do I think anybody here is going to think that having a struggle to reconcile "my father" and "trans" makes you transphobic. Having trouble coming to terms with it is natural and expected, but that assumes that you're not denying the reality of it, or refusing to try to make efforts to integrate this information into your interactions. |
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09-1-2019, 02:32 PM | #86 |
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I haven't really posted in the FFR forums for a long time, but the older life story thread was one of my favourite threads, and I wanted an avenue to talk about my personal problems.
My writing is probably really disorganised (it's 3am), but I think that's a decent enough summary of what I had gone through over my life. It's definitely not as bad as many people here, but I ultimately just wanted a place to write down how I've been feeling over the past few years. I also just wanted to thank the FFR community (and other rhythm game communities too) for making me feel at home for so long. I don't talk to most of the people that I talked to in 2011-2012 or so today, but I just wanted to say thanks to them for having me around and dealing with my garbage when I was much younger. Last edited by EzExZeRo7497; 09-1-2019 at 02:34 PM.. |
09-1-2019, 02:53 PM | #87 |
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its good to see you again
glad that stuff is going as well as it has been despite setbacks you really weren't a prick back in 2012 and I'm not just saying that
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09-1-2019, 02:54 PM | #88 | |
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09-1-2019, 03:42 PM | #89 | |
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but I'm not going to sugar-coat it, it was a truly awful situation for everyone involved. It's not about accepting this person's new identity, that was always a given. it's the reconciliation of this new person (who has largely been absent since then) with the few remaining images of "my dad" I have from childhood. occasionally I meet with my dad and he'll do or say something that reminds me of how he used to be and my brain can't process it and I almost pass out/have a seizure me reconnecting with my dad relieves a bit of my guilt complex but the cognitive dissonance is still a major obstacle for me |
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09-1-2019, 04:43 PM | #90 |
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I think it's pretty reasonable that if someone becomes someone else that you're not expected to automatically like the new them just because, especially when they act like a wholly different person.
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09-1-2019, 04:54 PM | #91 |
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i dont have the balls or the desire or the attention span to be that introspective and honest on my own let alone write it down and share it with you guys sorry
does that count
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09-1-2019, 05:28 PM | #92 | |
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09-3-2019, 07:54 PM | #93 |
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Re: life story thread
bump
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09-3-2019, 08:13 PM | #94 | |
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All of us in rhythm gaming think of you in extremely high regard, not even for the game itself (in which you were extremely good at regardless) but for how you acted and helped and tried to nurture the game, even while not playing. Many many people learned charting by reading your guides for example, and hell, even to this day we call getting a 92.99 on a song a 99.eze lol. To explain why I even mentioned the rhythm game part of your life is to create the point that though you were loved, it must have felt suffocating to think of asking for help in a group of people who thought of you so highly, like being afraid to show weakness, and that sucks. I'm glad to hear that you are working and progressing towards becoming happy and finding meaning, good luck. It sounds like you would make for an amazing therapist. Last edited by Dinglesberry; 09-3-2019 at 08:14 PM.. |
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09-7-2019, 12:12 AM | #95 |
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it was already kinda dying
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09-7-2019, 05:40 PM | #96 |
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Thank you everyone for sharing your stories. For some it might have been harder than we thought so I appreciate the opportunity to have a glimpse into your lives. Feels like I've gotten to know a few of you better
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09-7-2019, 06:19 PM | #97 |
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reading some of this stuff makes me want to remember what else happened in my life but it's all blank :v I guess that makes me potentially one of the lucky ones??
I could maybe distill my lesser attributes of finding it hard to relate with you guys with what feels like such a blurry past as being almost negative at times, and I get in that state of feeling like "eh I don't need people anyways" which I know isn't a healthy way to feel rip I guess what makes it ironic is I equalize my irrational negativity with the very thing that causes it continuing to be self absorbed and convincing myself "that's not who I am in this subsequent time and place" and a lot of space gets filled with neutrality up until If I'm not making an effort to go up I slowly fall down :v Maybe if I continue through this slow articulation then things of detail will come back to me like puzzle pieces but then ... I'd actually be responding to the thread topic in a way that makes sense and I for whatever f all reason (psychologically?) feel I didn't get the 'perfect' communication across and thus subject to implication or derail. I give tons of people credit over the years of wanting to know me but I simply always reverted back to my own bubble or comforting contemplation on aspects of life people do with out thought :I |
09-7-2019, 07:11 PM | #98 | |
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I do have dreams about the better events sometimes so I count those as sort of blessings, I don't have dreams of the abuse anymore |
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09-7-2019, 08:12 PM | #99 |
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I only dream about weird shit like monkeys with dicks under their ballsacks and running up ramps in grocery stores flying out the roof and falling in slow motion :v
I even had a dream that I was in a bathroom stall in newyork city were cops were trying to hunt me down to force me to watch a samurai jack ghost in the shell cross over were a human family was in a sphere like space craft with water and their brains were seperated from their heads but they were still talking to eachother :U edit: no rly i'm not typing this stuff to be funny Last edited by V-Ormix; 09-7-2019 at 08:16 PM.. |
09-7-2019, 09:30 PM | #100 |
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