What do you think is wrong with you?

[Izzy]

Lately I've been turning my head to the left or right because I think I'm seeing something in my peripherals and it always turns out there is nothing there.

I also keep thinking one of my lights is flickering a few times a day. It might be, but it also might be from the same problem as above.

[ssbmchamp]

super allergic to dogs even though i really like them. it's beyond annoying to say the least.

[Zapmeister]

i suck at AAAing anything.
i suck at going to sleep at night. ever since i've had any sense of time perception, it's taken me at least 20-30mins each night after i go to bed to get to sleep. sometimes an hour or two. also if i'm sleeping in a new bed i always wake up extremely early for no reason at all, and this lasts for about a week or two, which is a pain when i'm on holiday.
my blood pressure varies by up to ~40/20 on consecutive readings taken minutes apart; i don't know if this is normal.
i immensely suck at job interviews and applications in general.
i suck at broken stream and syncopated patterns like in clockwork genesis and takecore of yourself.
i shit every 4 days. i don't know whether to be concerned at all about this because it's always been that way since i was about 13. between the ages of 2 and 13 it was every 3 days, and before that i didn't have a perception of how to count days. this has not caused me any problems yet.
i suck at having a broad general spectrum of conversational topics. pick a topic with me and you'll soon discover that i know either absolutely nothing, or far too much. i sort of believe that the highly specialised nature of the british education system made me this way (but this is not a criticism of the british education system).
i suck at not losing on time when playing chess, which is why i only play by correspondence nowadays.
my eyesight is -6.5 dioptres off in my left eye. (it's -4.0 in my right, which is good enough that i don't consider it an artefact that is wrong with me.)
i have a really low cold tolerance which i think is due to a low core body temperature but i really have no idea.
i suck at talking to girls and all this mysterious dating stuff.
i suck at electrodynamics.
i suck at being tall.
i suck at not being overly negative about making lists on internet forums.
finally, ever since about four weeks ago, i suck at not getting nosebleeds in my right nostril.

[Zon Fire]

Depending on the lighting or shade of which I look at something, I often indentify 2 black floaters tracing in each eye.

I'm far too skinny for my height and weight.
5'7". 120 ~ ibs


Doesn't matter how much or how little of what my diet consists of, I gain or lose nothing. It bothers me because I can't gain fat to burn into muscle.

[SC_coolguy44]

-Social Anxiety
-Social Awkwardness (can't start or hold a conversation to save my life)
-Epilepsy
-Being single my whole life (I suck at talking to girls, but I also suck at talking to people overall)
-Having to live in a town where nothing is
-Having to go through frustration in my house every single day
-Low Self-esteem
-That feeling like I just want to give up on life...

[Ohaider]

not much self esteem, not much confidence in trusting others

[Poison-]

I think my biggest one is my innability to stay motivated with certain things.

[kommisar]

constant migraines due to back pain and weird ticks


also my penis has gotten too big

[yo man im awesome]

My inability to follow my own advice.

For whatever reason, my friends seem to come to me with their problems, and I'm practically a sitcom star with them having to deal with all their shit. Generally the advice I give them for said problem is pretty good, respectable at the least. But, when a similar if not identical problem arises for me, I don't follow my own advice, but I don't go to other people for help and leave myself in a ditch.

I make an effort to help the people who come to me, because my mind blocks out its own problems and issues by flooding it with everyone else's. I let the other person's problem(s) linger and weigh me down, tacking on more and more as I go.

I'm most worried about not disappointing others. Too me, seeing when I don't live up to the expectations somebody had for me, when I'm unable to help somebody, it literally kills me. This leads to me being extremely self conscious in person, trying to check everything I say, trying to find the most unbiased, sympathetic words to use in a situation because I don't want to see the other person get frustrated or upset. What's worst for me is that I know I should worry more about myself than others to an extent, but I can't seem to physically bring myself to change.

I'm generally pessimistic. My immediate thought on just about everything is negative, and I have to mentally check myself every time to search for positives.

On a more physical note: I'm pretty positive I have (really) poor circulation with my hands and feet, because I am consistently and constantly cold in those areas, be it winter or summer. It makes it really difficult to play games like FFR or play instruments.

[korny]

Stealing this one from dynamo -I have a hard time staying interested in something and often go from hobby to hobby, being intensely motivated at first but then completely being turned off from it a short while later. On the other extreme, if I actually stay interested in something, it turns into an obsession.

Establishing a healthy sleep pattern for my circadian rhythm. Go to bed at 4 am regularly and wake up at 2 in the afternoon. I enjoy being awake at night for some reason. I feel naturally nocturnal when I know it is unhealthy.

I'm 5' 9" and currently under 120 lbs. With a diet of whole grain pasta, bacon egg and cheese sandwiches on wheat bread, oatmeal, cereal w/ whole milk and other carbohydrate rich foods, I struggle reaching the 125 lb mark.

Not being sexist. This is actually very serious in the sense that I'm not trying to be demeaning at all. The hormonal difference in women and the irrationality that occurs from being inherently more emotional by nature, is something that clashes with my logical mind. I struggle establishing any relationship beyond friend or sexual partner because of this, especially when I know I am indeed sensitive and respondent to the needs of others, and am being told that I am not irrationally.

I have this overwhelming feeling like I'm not supposed to plug myself into the matrix of society and do things like work a 9-5 job or go to college for fear that I'm taking away the essence of my free spirited self and contributing to a capitalistic system that I do not support; so I become highly unmotivated knowing that generating income to live comfortably is up to my ability to be entrepreneurially savvy enough to be able to do that, and it is not easy so I procrastinate like a mother fucker without any vision in mind.

I am addicted to sex and it really is a huge problem for me. It contributes immensely to my non-productivity, because instead of doing something that will help build a foundation for what I could be doing to support myself, I will instantly gratify my urges so that I don't have to think about how I can be marketing my skills or finding a niche that works for me. I just have a really hard time in general not seeking out the convenience of women that I know will have sex with me.

I have a hard time knowing that I am far more self-aware than any one that I know. In contrast to what vendetta said "-assuming when I talk about a lot of my perceptions that people are self-aware enough of these things in themselves to follow me" I instead know through experience that most people are not. I constantly wonder what that means about myself to be able to perceive things with such accuracy with such little conveyance, and how I can connect with those who aren't, instead of feeling like I have this superior 6th sense that I can fall back on and say "no, you just don't understand, nvm". I create an ego to suppress the frustration I have with those I feel just "don't care" or live blissfully ignorant so that I can be like "one of them" enough for it to not overwhelm me. Being in the .1% at everything I like to do adds a superiority complex into the mix, because I just tell myself "the only reason I'm not as good as you are at that or better, is because it doesn't have entertainment value for me" without even attempting whatever thing it is that's being discussed, and there is a large degree of truth to that. I feel alienated because of my ability to naturally excel at certain things. Anything I can find entertainment value in basically. I don't know if I'm just supposed to accept that perhaps I was just blessed with good genetics, therefore I should be humble enough to accept that I am naturally good at things, (sports, video games, reading a situation for what it really is far beyond what anyone else does) or if that is an excuse I create to in order protect myself from being perceived as elitist or arrogant unfairly.

[Pseudo Enigma]

Ugh don't get me started. Inb4 huge wall

Body:
- I twitch uncontrollably. I'm not sure whether to call it a twitch or not, but it's definitely not a controllable action. Basically if I'm aware that I'm sitting still, my body will just flinch every few seconds without reason. My head will twitch if I'm lying on a pillow etc.
- I'm pretty sure I don't have good hearing, and it's not something I did to myself, I think. It worries me
- My body produces way too much earwax. I find myself digging it out at least once a day.
- My pinky toes are fucking small, they are about a centimeter and a half long. The toenails are about 6 millimeters wide.
- I sleep at weird hours. If I have enough time away from commitments such as school, my natural sleep pattern kicks in and I find myself sleeping from 8AM to 6-8PM.
- My face has a streak of acne across the nose, in a blatant red rash. I dunno if it's cute or not, but I definitely don't like looking at it.
- I can't get rid of the bags under my eyes even if I sleep properly for a month.
- My appetite is too big and refreshes too often for me to keep up.
- I can't gain weight and I'm pretty sure I'm under 100LBs (5'5"?)
- My mouth wont form words properly.

Mind/Personality:
- I always second guess myself. This almost always makes me make a wrong decision which would've been right if I didn't hesitate.
- I always feel awkward around people and I feel like I shouldn't be there.
- I can never put things into words exactly the way I want to put them when I'm speaking irl
- I think people hate me when they don't.
- I get into this state of mind where I feel like nothing is worth anything at all. Nothing has value because everything always comes back to the fact that after you die, there's nothing. If you lose everything in the end, what's the point in trying at all.
- I'm able to listen to highly repetitive music for hours without feeling annoyed or bothered by it. EG. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7wp3rzAdwT8
- I feel annoyed by my artistic taste. I can never actually pronounce it properly, and I have a quirk that just makes it fail a lot of the time.
- Even if I know I'm being annoying or disruptive, sometimes I have a hard time restraining myself.
- If nobody was around to hear, I would probably be screaming half the time. I always have an urge to just scream for no reason.
- I can't control my temper, and it often controls me.
- The amount of restraint I have from saying stupid shit is too damn high. I hate that I have those thoughts in the first place.
- I take things extremely personally for no reason
- I'm melodramatic.
- I always make things about me, even when they're not.
- I actually try really hard to be a nice person. I shouldn't have to try at all, and that bothers me.
- I find it weird that almost all the people I make friends with are women or men who aren't masculine.
- I resist the urge to restyle myself so often. For example, I'd probably make a new profile for myself every week if I had the dedication or time.
- I'm probably a narcissist. I find myself looking at my reflection too often lately.
- If I'm learning about something in school, I'm always challenging it and subconsciously telling myself it's not true. I don't know when this started, but I feel like I'm not learning properly because I can't accept it.
- I take note of my surroundings into great detail, only to forget it after I leave. I will actually read everything on the walls, take note of how the bricks are laid out. Everything.
- I can't go near bridges or ledges without feeling like if I wasn't focused on thinking about not jumping off that I would.
- When I'm speaking my word order always gets changed up, or letters. It's almost like verbal dyslexia. A couple examples: lapping cloudly (clapping loudly), I ate breakfast for rice. (I ate rice for breakfast.)

- I feel like I can't think straight anymore and that I'm slowly going insane.

[JohnRedWolf87]

-I'm overweight. Not grotesquely so, but still.
-Although I'm not ugly, and might be a little on the cute/handsome side (from what people have told me), I'm still pretty average-looking and definitely won't turn any heads.
-Socially awkward
-Easily anxious/nervous.
-No ambition, at least where it matters. I'd be fine working at the same job all my life, as long as I enjoyed it and the pay was good. I could care less about moving up in the company or making my mark on the world.
-The things I'm passionate about are hobbies that have little or no productive value. If I had enough money, I'd just retire and spend my free time doing useless but fun shit.
-I have a speech impediment, which causes me to stutter. It's not as bad as it was, but it still surfaces from time to time.
-I'm allergic to male cats.
-I need 9 hours of sleep.
-I'm not sure if I'll ever find the right girl for me. Even if she sticks around long enough for me to open up to her, there'll probably be some part of my personality that will make a relationship difficult. It doesn't bother me, though. If I'm to die alone, at least I'll have friends.

[ilikexd]

taking meds for anxiety problem

[Herogashix]

In a nutshell, everything.

[kmay]

i think i'm some hideous monster, yet i still think i'm too good for anyone else

i have a horrible work ethic because i never have to try to do better than the average

i think my legs are too long

i have pain in my knuckles and wrist probably from this game.

i have some acne but i dont do anything about it

i'm only social when i'm drunk, but then i'm too social

[Samwais]

Only one thing about me that I would consider a problem.

-I overthink the simplest things and make things extremely difficult for myself and sometimes for others too. I often find myself thinking about how i should say something to someone, how to articulate, what their reaction will probably be etc. in social situations. This often leads to either me awkwardly acting out my thought pattern or just the other person saying something that makes my whole train of thought void. I often get mad at myself for doing this because it's completely unnecessary.

EDIT: Also seconding this, though I've found ways to work around it.

Originally Posted by korny

Stealing this one from dynamo -I have a hard time staying interested in something and often go from hobby to hobby, being intensely motivated at first but then completely being turned off from it a short while later. On the other extreme, if I actually stay interested in something, it turns into an obsession.

[JohnRedWolf87]

Forgot some things:

-When reading, sometimes I'll get a song stuck in my head that doesn't fit the scene in the book/comic at all, and it makes it hard to concentrate. I often read with music playing to keep this from happening
-Sometimes I'll daydream about negative situations and become internally pissed off or upset for no reason.

[Vendetta21]

Originally Posted by JohnRedWolf87

-Sometimes I'll daydream about negative situations and become internally pissed off or upset for no reason.

oh yeah i do this constantly but with stressful shit at work

[Spenner]

A potential problem with me is wanting to explore the effects of drugs is something I kind of obsess over, and things that have to do with the psyche and consciousness in general, perceiving it, and the malleability of it. This can obviously be done in moderation and with enough caution that there is nothing residual or damaging, but I REALLY get into it. I can read up wiki pages and p/tihkal pages and erowid for hours just fantasizing, though moreso just imagining/putting myself in the shoes of the people who have already done the substance.

I do feel, though, that I always build myself up with fascination into an impulse to buy something. It costs money. I just spent $300 on etizolam and 2c-e, which was as far as I gather, an impulse buy >_> HOWEVER it was "justified" because I foresee a great therapeutic use of the etizolam, and I hope I don't fall into any sort of abuse (I haven't fallen into abusive areas ever, except for kratom on sparse occasion).

Most of the problem with it is the social stigma associated with drug exploration and whatnot. Which I can deal with, it's just that a lot of people will never understand/connect with what's really being done when someone mindful is exploring the changes, and think they are just gettin' hi.

[korny]

Originally Posted by Spenner

Most of the problem with it is the social stigma associated with drug exploration and whatnot. Which I can deal with, it's just that a lot of people will never understand/connect with what's really being done when someone mindful is exploring the changes, and think they are just gettin' hi.

It can be very frustrating indeed. Very few people in general who even use psychedelics for instance, use them for anything other than "having a good time" in the context of not using them for self-exploration and introspection. This approach fuels the social stigma and turns people away from accepting the legitimacy of psychonauts, which is very unfortunate.