Bulimia

[johnnyhoney0]

Originally Posted by AriesMalvis

i used to do that so many times a day

Luckily, she has been able to keep it to only one time a day, though I agree with you, even that is one time too many.

Originally Posted by AriesMalvis

because she feels it's one of the only things she has control over?

No, honestly I don't think it's really a control thing. She knows as well as everyone else does that it's not an aspect of her life that she feels in control of at all. She has high cholesterol, high blood pressure, and a low white blood cell count. On top of that, she is extremely malnourished, iron deficient, and anemic. I wouldn't say that is really in control at all. I understand that those are bodily conditions, and that's not really what you were asking about, but I think that has a lot to do with it.

It's like a different part of her personality takes over and she is forced to do it. That's usually how she describes it to me.

Originally Posted by AriesMalvis

and im sure she knows the damage shes doing to herself, and any type of help...either medical or not can only go so far...

Oh, yes, she knows. Definitely. She tells me all the time about how she knows she's killing herself by doing this, but that she can't stop. It's extremely hard for her to quit doing it. The logic of "if you would just stop, then you'd be alright" evades the part of her that says "I have to do this, period". Of course, I don't ever say the words "if you would just stop, then you'd be alright", but you get what I'm saying.

It's good to hear from you, AriesMalvis, having been/being a bulimic yourself. This is what I was hoping for: input from both bulimics and non-bulimics. Thank you.