have a good christmas

[Mahou]

Re: have a good christmas

God damn drizzle, are you fucking serious?

[Tarrik]

Re: have a good christmas

that is one hell of a stretch


I'm not one to let people in; I've always guarded myself from people getting close to me, so for those that were 100% shocked at this thread, I apologize

I just... let my guard down

Believe it or not, we actually do give a shit about you. Do you have someone to actually talk to about what got you so upset?

[choof]

Re: have a good christmas

was gonna make another post but mahou seems to want the spotlight

I'll be sparse for the next week or so, my holidays are going to be pretty lonely

edit: a few people could make educated guesses

[choof]

Re: have a good christmas

that also explains why I have this top quote in my sig

[TC_Halogen]

Re: have a good christmas

This thread, while very tough to read through given the initial desperation of the situation, serves as a great reminder of FFR coming together as a community to try and help someone that is in need. I find it really difficult to want to keep this thread around for choof's sake, but at the same time, it is also somewhat difficult to want to simply remove it because it shows that there were a number of people who did take the time to try and get in touch with him because of the level of concern we had.

As a note, there were a number of us who thought the absolute worst only because choof had given us a slight glimpse into what was going on, which is why the reaction from a number of people was nearly immediate -- there was no consideration of this facetious; people simply scrambled and tried to do anything they could to get in touch.

At the end of the day, choof is technically the person who created this thread, and he himself can very easily request it locked if he would like -- or, he could simply delete the thread himself by deleting his first post, as he is the creator.

[choof]

Re: have a good christmas

do whatever you feel is best

[Mahou]

Re: have a good christmas

was gonna make another post but mahou seems to want the spotlight

I'll be sparse for the next week or so, my holidays are going to be pretty lonely

edit: a few people could make educated guesses

I'm aware that this thread isn't about me, but seeing this kind of stuff makes me have a sick feeling. I didn't want to attract attention either... I just wanted to see of you were okay. I've lost two friends that killed themselves during my enlistment, and I get very emotional when I see things happen like this. You out the few veterans on FFR know how stressful that lifestyle can be. I also don't feel a suicide thread is needed to be kept to remind people that we should care if it involves someone considering to end their life. That's just being a good person.

But I do agree mike should decide if he wants it here or not. Damn dude, I'm just glad you're not dead.

[noname219]

Re: have a good christmas

Take care man.

[Funnygurl555]

Re: have a good christmas

I'm not sure if this is important at all, but there is information here about where choof works. If this is kept around, would it be a good idea to erase that?

Also, feel better, choof.

[Kraezymann]

Re: have a good christmas

Mike, you've been around for a while. I'm sure a lot of people are going to want to have a chat and make sure you're okay.

I just want to offer my ear if you ever decide you want to talk.

Actually, that goes for everyone. I'm always around, and always ready to have listen

[gold stinger]

Re: have a good christmas

Exactly what Kraezymann said. We're here for you choof, we like having you around. It would be a tragedy for the lot of us to not have you here.

[blindreper1179]

Re: have a good christmas

Same here guys, whether ya hate me or love me, I have good listening ears. <3

[ItsOnlyDanO]

Re: have a good christmas

damn

well i wasn't expecting this then I was reading through ffr this morning

[Spenner]

Re: have a good christmas

This is a real fucking issue. We have no outlet for when we feel like not existing. Someone does not recover completely from an existential crisis so deeply twisted that it makes them always have some sense of inner discomfort.

I can personally relate and understand why it would feel so almost desirable. Life is punishing, but it is nourishing, even if only to punish. For some people it's not like that. For those people who don't deal with them, I kind of urge you not to explore deeper. You are going down a rabbit hole and choof has lived to tell the tale of how deep that hole can be.

Respect to you.

[RE_Alioth2]

Re: have a good christmas

that is one hell of a stretch


I'm not one to let people in; I've always guarded myself from people getting close to me, so for those that were 100% shocked at this thread, I apologize

I just... let my guard down

Bro...don't be sorry at all, everyone has their hardships in life, but nobody would've been happy to see such a good person die. I know...this is coming from the person you probably would least like to hear from, but truth of the matter is...I empathize with you.

I've been the same way with my life, despite how irate I truly am. I let my ego get to me back then, and for that I am incredibly sorry If I could take back any of the things I have done to you, then hell yes I would. If you ever feel the need to talk or just flip on a person, you can always talk to me, despite what you may feel about me. Just know that I'm there for you...and I will respect and acknowledge any decisions you make~

To everyone in this community...I'm deeply sorry for treating everyone the way I did. I am working on changing, and I promise that I won't be flipping on a dime towards anybody here anymore. I'm aware of how dramatic I can be, and that's mainly because of my insecurities with life. I hope everyone has a happy holiday, and I'll be posting here to share a picture I'm drawing for choof