Gay Churches?

[L0NEvvolf]

i honestly belive im gay i do not take pride in this i actually wish i wasnt but ive liked guys sence i was 7 and have never liked a girl not even really as a friend they annoy me for the mostpart there are obviously some acceptions but most girls i know i dislike. anyways ive been a christian all my life and have prayed about changing for a while i finnally gave up last year because i felt he wasnt hearing my prayers. i belive in sex after marraige and do wish to marry someday but i dn its been real hard for me. about 2 years ago i was suisidle because of it and attempted a few times. i really didnt want to die but i felt god had just thrown me off to the side to rot. i decided i had to learn and accept myself if i was ever to be happy. so now a year or too later dont feel like doing the math i am much happier i am still a heavy beliver in god and go to church but im gay i dont act girly i act like a normal teenage guy i just like guys. if i could i would really change but i dn if that will ever happen o well i also know my parents will have a very hard time to accept me as they dont know yet but o well