Have you ever felt suicidal? If so, how did you get over it? If not, how would you

[fido123]

Re: Have you ever felt suicidal? If so, how did you get over it? If not, how would yo

Sorry if I'm late but I would like to have some input on this. Happiness is relative, this is why the elite still kill themselves but starving Ethiopian orphans don't. We live in a world with our own standards and if your suicidal just take a look at people worse off than you. Just being alive is a miracle and something to embrace.

We all go through bad pages in our life and others have dark chapters and I for one have had one. Through grades 4-7 my life sucked, I had no friends I liked due to I wasted my younger years playing games and doing nothing but that...I developed no social skills. In grade 8 (new school) I was so used to being a loaner I still didn't have any friends. Through those times I was depressed and I look back now and I should have been depressed according to my current standards but I'm happy now.

Things change but that isn't even whats important. The thing most important to keep in mind is happiness is relative and no matter how ****ed up you think your life is it's just your standards. Look at just what life is and understand what it is.

Another helpful thing is to try your best to surround yourself with happy things. I have a friend who cuts himself and he listens to a lot of depressing emo screamo trash garbage. I can see that it is a catalyst in his depression. I find listening to Euro Trance really does make me happy. It takes a lot to anger me but one day two guys pushed me over the limit and it turned into two separate fights with the both of them. When I'm angry I'm REALLY angry but after only about 10 minutes of listening to nice happy music I was calm enough to calmly talk to the principle and I felt like as if nothing has happened at all. If you want to see what I listen to (or just want to ask me anything else) give me a PM or contact me any other way.

(Sorry for all the grammar errors...tired as hell)

[ledwix]

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Your welcome. You used to be in my top16 in my previous account. 3-4 years ago.

Mmmm..yeah I just found out you were ap19, nice. I remember playing you in MP when Neomax was still kinda new.

[MrRubix]

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I think everyone, at some point, experiences a low that is so stressful and depressing that they consider suicide in some form. Those who actually do it can sometimes seem like the happiest people you know, however. It's a very counterintuitive thing.

Actually hearing about a suicide though always breaks my heart. There's just so much help out there and so many people who are willing to listen and truly be sympathetic. Nobody should be alone in this world, really. Suicide is a really selfish thing to do, since it doesn't only affect YOU. You leave behind so much damage to those who love you. There's always help... if you're ever contemplating suicide, always seek help. Most problems are temporary -- even the ones you may feel are permanent. Sometimes people just don't know what to do or what questions to ask, which is why seeking professional help, or even just talking to a good, trusted friend can do wonders.

There was a short period where I contemplated suicide myself. But then I learned to love myself. Perhaps I overcompensated. But hot damn, I'm staying here as long as my body is willing.






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I guess I should share something. I have only told one person about this before in my life, but I hope this story helps at least one other out there. There was a time when I actually attempted suicide. It was shortly after my own father died. It was during the most awful time -- I had a family to keep together emotionally, 15 colleges to apply to, a valedictorian status to uphold, a dwindling money supply, diminished health, frequent breakdowns, a feeling of loneliness, strained relationships... things were really hard. I felt that what had happened was so permanent... and in a way, it was. I felt that the difficulties that arose were insurmountable. I went out on the back balcony at my house on the upper level, and positioned myself on the outside of the wooden frame, and was ready to just let go and fall like 3 stories.

I was extremely close to actually letting go about 10 or 11 times while I was up there. My heart starts racing when I think about how close I was. I had to remember that killing myself would result in yet another loss to my family, and I know my father would have not wanted for us to self-destruct and fall apart as a family like that. I also had to remind myself about my positive attributes, friends, and the fact that I'd probably have a bright future ahead of me. All of this struggled against thoughts of hopelessness, failure, and irrevocable damage to the family. There was indeed a long period of depression, but sometimes you have to let logic overtake pure emotion as best you can.

Even though my father's death is permanent (he's never going to come back no matter how much I wish for it), it doesn't mean I can't live a good life. I've since come to learn that although my family has forever changed, and that we've all changed as individuals, we're still capable of being healthy emotionally. I managed to stick with school, get admitted to most of my colleges (all but one what the fsck), emerge valedictorian, make some great friends, and I had a ton of fun getting out more and experiencing the world. I traveled, made memories, worked hard, partied hard, tried new things... I don't regret any of it for a second. I am so grateful that I chose not to take my own life that day because so many good things have happened as a result of a better attitude. You're in control of your life, and if something isn't going your way, do what you can do change it. If you don't know how, ask. There are so many options out there -- you just need to reach out for them.

Even though I still mourn my losses and feel sadness for what has happened, and oftentimes feel stressed out, it's always useful to remember that life's a gift, and there's no guarantee that we have anything more than that. I just heard this from Kung Fu Panda today, but I thought it was a brilliant quote: "The past is history, the future is a mystery, but today is a gift -- that's why they call it the present." Take some time to really just relax and look at the sky sometime. We're alive in a very exciting era in history, and there's so much beauty around us in so many different forms. Why would we ever choose to remove ourselves from it? There are always problems, but there are always ways to change and adapt as well.

So many people hold an incredible amount power over their own lives and don't even really understand how to harness it. It's just that nobody's really ever told them how.

[BigBoss37]

Re: Have you ever felt suicidal? If so, how did you get over it? If not, how would yo

My respect for you has gone up Rubix. I'm glad people here are being sympathetic to one another.

[Xx{Midday}xX]

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If only the internet were real. If only living on the internet meant living reality.

Is what I usually wish for. I don't find sympathy outside my house. Ever.

[ledwix]

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Ah, thanks for the insight, MrRubix. And I'm sorry to hear about your tough situation back then.

[MixMasterLar]

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This is going to sound harsh, but most of the kids on here dont really know anything about living life yet and they are already willing to kill themselves.

Im sorry, but if you think that having no friends in school, having stupid teachers, thinking that life sucks before your 20 since it's boring, and realizing that your first 4 girlfriends didnt really love you are reasons to kill yourselve then you need to grow up and taste LIFE before you think about DEATH.

[Zamiax]

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Flashflashrevolution, saving lives since '02

Wow, the extreme opposite of Myspace.

[Izzy]

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Just curious. Does anyone think someone has committed suicide on a whim. Just decided then and there to do it and then did it?

[mellonxcollie]

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Something that always helps me whenever I am feeling lonely or suicidal is the thought that other people have felt this way, too. There is probably someone in the world feeling the same way at this exact moment. It helps me to not feel alone when I know that there are others in the same boat, and if they can get through it, I can too.

[Tired_Old_Man]

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Just curious. Does anyone think someone has committed suicide on a whim. Just decided then and there to do it and then did it?

I have, there was really no reason at all. I od'ed on anti-depressants, obviously my mom found me but I barely lived through it and I did permanent damage to my heart muscle. I still often wonder what the point of surviving was.

[Izzy]

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That's pretty ****ed up. And what isn't the point of surviving?

[FishFishRevolution]

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Having mono has ruined so much of my life these past few months that I question if it's even worth it. Have you guys ever had 10 mouth cankers at one time? 3 of them under your tongue? It's just not worth the pain.

[All_That_Chaz]

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I'm sorry to hear you're having a hard time, fish. I hope you're seeing a doctor about that.

To OP:
The undeniable possibility that life could get better is enough proof that you shouldn't end your life. I know that's cold, calculating logic but a suicidal sees things in absolutes. When you hit rock bottom you don't stay there.

[FishFishRevolution]

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I'm sorry to hear you're having a hard time, fish. I hope you're seeing a doctor about that.

There are creams, there are mouthwashes. None of them really work well and none of them are practical or easy to administer.