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  • All_That_Chaz
    Supreme Dictator For Life
    • Apr 2004
    • 5874

    #1

    A Suicide Note

    To whom it may concern:

    I grew up west of the city and lived quite happily for much of my childhood. I loved my parents dearly and I mirthfully played outside with my friends most of the time. I lived a completely carefree life. I thought that life would be one big happy romp in the grass.

    That was until he came along. The young man, he couldn't have been much older than me, had his friend beat me to submission, imprisoned me, and took me away from my family. He even changed my name. The psychotic freak healed my wounds and acted as if we were to be lifelong friends. He said that we were going on grand adventures and that we would be the true masters of our time. I was so scared that I complied and went with him. He told me that the first order of business was to improve myself through combat. I had play-fought with my friends some when I was younger, but I was no brute. I tried to tell him that I had no desire to fight, but he just kept responding as if I were excited at the prospect. I don't think he understood me.

    I had a glimmer of hope when I saw where we were going. He was taking me home! I thought the nightmare was over. My friends had all come out to see me. They had been so worried about me ever since I disappeared. But that's when I heard the boy speak. "Attack."

    No. I refused to believe it. This sadist had brought me home with the intention of having me slaughter my friends?! I refused. But that's when something strange came over me. I felt myself losing control of myself and before I knew what was happening, I was clawing at my best friend's eyes. I tried with all my might to will myself to stop, but it was no use. My kidnapper had complete control over me. I don't know how he was doing any of this, but I was forced to watch as my own limbs cut apart first one, then two, then three, then scores of my childhood friends and acquaintances. Tears streamed down my face as I was powerless to stop the carnage.

    My heart sank when I saw two familiar faces in the distance. It was my parents. I screamed at them to run - that I was not in control of myself. They didn't understand. They saw that I was upset and ran to comfort me. I wish to God that they had just ran. The boy saw them and danced with delight, seeing them as a proper challenge for me, his new pet. I begged. I pleaded with the boy to end this senseless melee. Again, he seemed to think I wanted to go through with the sordid deed.

    I don't know if they survived. I was so tired by the time the boy took me away, I think I passed out. I awoke in a hospital of sorts, the boy standing over me telling me that I did great - that I was on my way to being the strongest there ever was. I wanted to die.

    It was then that I resolved to end my life. Not only had I perhaps killed my own family, but I had destroyed the lives of everyone I had ever loved - none of it by my own will. Without my free will, who knows what other atrocities the boy would have me commit to satisfy whatever horrifying desires he needs sated.

    While imprisoned, I have no means of killing myself but my own. Somehow I am free to act here, but not out there. I suppose this new-found strength would be put to use one last time. I will slash my jugular and be free of this torture. My one wish is that the survivors that were left know that I fought against it as hard as I could, that this was not my fault, and that I hope I see them again.

    Sincerely,
    Sandshrew (my master saw fit to name me, "Cockface.")




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    Just an idea I had. I thought it was funny. Pokemon always seemed strange to me how you'd catch a poke and go back to where you got it and destroy things there to level it up. Wouldn't your poke like... know everyone there?
    Last edited by All_That_Chaz; 10-6-2011, 02:41 PM.
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    Originally posted by FoJaR
    dammit chaz
    Originally posted by FoJaR
    god dammit chaz
    Originally posted by MalReynolds
    I bet when you live in a glass house, the temptation to throw stones is magnified strictly because you're not supposed to.
  • sakura080789
    Rapture Universe
    • Feb 2007
    • 1751

    #2
    Re: A Suicide Note

    pretty good chaz. the title kinda threw me off for a sec

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    • Sephiroth28
      Snake Princess
      • Apr 2007
      • 929

      #3
      Re: A Suicide Note

      lol. That was pretty awesome.
      sigpic

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      • All_That_Chaz
        Supreme Dictator For Life
        • Apr 2004
        • 5874

        #4
        Re: A Suicide Note

        Yeah I just realized that from the front page everybody thinks I killed myself now.

        inb4 cheers.
        Back to "Back to Earth"
        Originally posted by FoJaR
        dammit chaz
        Originally posted by FoJaR
        god dammit chaz
        Originally posted by MalReynolds
        I bet when you live in a glass house, the temptation to throw stones is magnified strictly because you're not supposed to.

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        • TC_Halogen
          Rhythm game specialist.
          FFR Simfile Author
          FFR Music Producer
          • Feb 2008
          • 19376

          #5
          Re: A Suicide Note

          I love this concept. Nice job, Chaz.

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          • TheNoSoMan
            FFR Player
            • Feb 2009
            • 382

            #6
            Re: A Suicide Note

            It would be nice if you wrote the thoughts of unique pokemon like, say, Snorlax, Slaking, or Salamance.
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            • Emithith
              FFR Player
              • Sep 2008
              • 1784

              #7
              Re: A Suicide Note

              I feel bad for laughing.
              I'm going to hell.

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              • PrawnSkunk
                Administrator
                FFR Simfile Author
                FFR Administrator
                • Dec 2007
                • 3907

                #8
                Re: A Suicide Note

                Holy sh*t I thought you were actually committing suicide, since you already posted another thread about it in 2010.

                cool story bro!~ :}

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                • UserNameGoesHere
                  FFR Veteran
                  • May 2008
                  • 1114

                  #9
                  Re: A Suicide Note

                  Yeah I'm actually kind of glad this wasn't serious.
                  Originally posted by Crashfan3
                  Man, what would we do without bored rednecks?
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                  • Panic4Me
                    o_o
                    • Aug 2006
                    • 911

                    #10
                    Re: A Suicide Note

                    Originally posted by Emithith
                    I feel bad for laughing.
                    I'm going to hell.
                    ^This.

                    Originally posted by UserNameGoesHere
                    Yeah I'm actually kind of glad this wasn't serious.
                    ^This too.

                    At first I was like "wtf?". Then I scrolled down to the bottom of the OP and saw the sig, so I knew what it was about, but this was sooo good. xD
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                    • Crashfan3
                      FFR Player
                      • Nov 2006
                      • 2937

                      #11
                      Re: A Suicide Note

                      Yup, me too. I read the title and thought, "Oh, ****, he's thinking of killing himself? Time to post ponies to talk him out of it!"

                      But, uh, anyway, that was an interesting read. I never really thought about how I train my Pokemon on his own friends, lol. But none of them ever die, they only "faint", even if they've been burnt to a crisp, shocked with 20000v of electricity, drowned, etc... :/

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                      • justin_ator
                        🥓<strong><span style="col
                        • Mar 2007
                        • 7648

                        #12
                        Re: A Suicide Note

                        tha fuq? That gave me goosebumps???....

                        LOL.

                        Very interesting thought indeed. I think I'm done playing Pokemon now.

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                        • All_That_Chaz
                          Supreme Dictator For Life
                          • Apr 2004
                          • 5874

                          #13
                          Re: A Suicide Note

                          Thank you for the comments. It's just something that always seemed so strange to me about pokemon how it's just glorified dog-fighting. It's brutal and somehow it's an adorable children's show.

                          @PrawnSkunk, I made that thread because people were discussing that subject in an inappropriate thread and forum. I just made it so people would post in that thread instead.
                          Back to "Back to Earth"
                          Originally posted by FoJaR
                          dammit chaz
                          Originally posted by FoJaR
                          god dammit chaz
                          Originally posted by MalReynolds
                          I bet when you live in a glass house, the temptation to throw stones is magnified strictly because you're not supposed to.

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                          • DJMAYYYNE
                            FFR Player
                            • Jun 2009
                            • 609

                            #14
                            Re: A Suicide Note

                            LMFAO, I'm going to hell.

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                            • Myattboy
                              The Lurker
                              • Mar 2005
                              • 417

                              #15
                              Re: A Suicide Note

                              Originally posted by UserNameGoesHere
                              Yeah I'm actually kind of glad this wasn't serious.
                              ^

                              Had me worried for a second, interesting read though

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