Sitting down once again, seeming to be,
The only thing I can do right, now a days…
Wondering about how much my life is worth to you…
Wondering how much it is worth to them…
Laying back and feeling the soft rain hit my face,
Thinking of my plans for the future…
Flipping through the memories in my head like a photo album…
Smiling softly as I replay your laughter in my head…
Replaying that voice I fell in love with…
Sitting up as a song begins to play,
Erasing the thoughts from my mind…
Listening as the words flow:

“Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life “

The words hit me like a hurricane…
The song flowed through me like a guiding light,
Showing me where to go to leave the pain…
Picking up the rose next to me,
Thinking to myself how right the words sounded…
I shall go stronger with this pain,
And carry on with my life…
One day I might look back and wonder how it would have been,
But there is no time for that now… whilst I am weak…
I must carry on… I must push my self forward instead of falling back…
Looking up at the rain, smiling at my new found thoughts…
Life will be better,
And will take me to where I need to be…
The future holds many untold tales,
But for now I would like them to remain untold…
I pick myself up and look into the street,
Picturing you for one last time…
Picturing the kiss I pictured many of times,
And letting it go…

-Zaqueo Cazares Jr.

Standing up at the alter, looking from my friend to the preacher,
Trying not to be so nervous…
This is what I have been waiting for, to spend my life with you…
My friend taps my shoulder and whispers:
“I’m proud of you man, I wish you the best..”
And all I can do is smile…
As the music starts to play, I straighten myself up,
Looking towards the doors as the open, finding my breath token from me…
There before me was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen…
Dressed in the red and white dress, hair flowing softly,
Beaming with the perfect smile, was my soon to be wife…
She was an angel before my eyes…
A delicate flower in a bush…
She is my heart and soul…
And as she steps up to me, she whispers softly “I love you”
And I reply “I love you too”…
Watching her as the preacher speaks, afraid of losing the moment…
Afraid of it being a dream and waking up with nothing…
The preacher announced us to say our vows, and I let it flow:
“I promise to love you with all my heart, forever and a trillion days…
You are my one and only, and I wouldn’t have it any other way…
I promise to never lie, to never cheat,
To hold you close whenever you need me,
To kiss your tears and pains away…
But most importantly, to love you..
To be the best husband and father I can be…
I love you…”
And as I look at the tears fall from your eyes, you speak your vows…
I listen intently not wanting to miss a thing, feeling the tears fall from my own eyes…
Nothing could go wrong, I thought, so perfect, so wonderful…
And when she was done, life was at its best… for the rings were placed on the fingers,
And when we kissed, I was lost… I was there, but we weren’t, if you know what I mean.
Lost in our own world, as we dance to our song…
A perfect way, to end a perfect day…
The perfect way, to spend the rest of my life with you…
Right there by your side…

-Zaqueo Cazares Jr.