Posted on: February 17, 2007, at 05:17:30pm

when did happiness,
become so hard to acquire,
and how did people . . .
suddenly all become liars?
how did trust,
go down the drain?
and when did loved ones,
start causing all your pain?
let's play pretend,
for a little while,
that things were as simple,
as when i was a child,
when all boys had cooties,
and all your stress,
came from an unfinished project,
or when your hair's a total mess.
before crushes and love,
not being returned,
broke naive hearts,
and had hard lessons learned.
when our childish brains,
were filled with pure innosence,
and our amateur hearts,
became blissfully ignorant.
way before love,
turned us evil,
killing our trust,
and compassion for people.
when 'relationship'
was just a word,
and the thought of a boyfriend,
was simply absurd.
let's play pretend,
parents don't divorce,
and children aren't forced to make,
mature decisions in court.
when my biggest fear,
wasn't my wrists soaked in red,
but the monsters in the closet,
or the demons under my bed.
before beauty became a necessity,
and silver blades became close friends,
before tears flowed like rivers,
with thoughts of sweet suicide in your head.
let's play pretend,
you're not a major part of my life,
and one of the many reasons,
i escape through my knife.
let me say now,
that i never kissed you,
so i can happily pretend . . .
that i'm not in love with you.
and i'll forgive and forget,
let us have a fresh start,
i'll play pretend . . .
you didn't break my heart.