poptimist?
Posted on: April 6, 2008, at 08:11:35pm

why can't things be easy?
somehow cutting just came into my mind
it's not like i'd ever do it again
but i find it stinking hilarious that i saw that as an alternative a year ago
... when nothing was even wrong

take my hand
let's run away

i hate that seeing someone can take away my joy. then again, it's not really joy if it fades so fast
pressing on a year
and it all hasn't changed
well, a little here and there, but nothing super significant

i hate being so deaf
so blind, so mute
so braindead
i'm like a vegetable
i can't do anything for God
i don't do anything with God
i just expect Him to help me with everything -- which he doesn't, but i'm prettyyy sure that's because i don't trust him

is it so hard to love?
is it so hard to listen?
is it so hard to live free?
yes
it is
but it shouldn't be

oh why, oh why can't i be an optimist?