holly_da_goddess writes...
at 12:07:20am on 1/31/07

love you...:) thought id just say that..

holly_da_goddess writes...
at 2:46:31pm on 1/15/07

lol.....you are so random and sweet. let me try to match up...

buttered bagels :)

holly_da_goddess writes...
at 9:21:48pm on 1/8/07

i won't lie to you. i do like leo, but as a friend. a dear friend. that shouldn't hurt you!! It's normal for a girl to have guy friends, it's only natural! You have to understand that. I'm not going to throw away my male friends because you have a jealousy issue. The solution we need to work out together is more trust and care between us once we actually can do that. derek, you have to be patient on that one. We can't fix that until we can really be a true couple, and god knows when that'll be available to us. patience!! it'll get better..

holly_da_goddess writes...
at 9:18:55pm on 1/8/07

as for you being anorexic, EAT SOME FOOD!! pizza, or something! I'm the one who should be anorexic, not you. ive got enough blubber for the both of us to live off of for at least a couple weeks

holly_da_goddess writes...
at 9:17:53pm on 1/8/07

of course I'm scared of you. any minute you could leave, any second someone could be hurt because i messed up. but your friend is wrong. I'm not with you because im scared of you. I'm with you because i care about you. I'm going through a lot at home and i don't feel much like a person nowadays. you have problems yourself that you have to deal with, so i see us being in a very similar situation. but im a little dead, and ive been trying to feel again. let's face it. you're not here because you can't be. it's not your fault, that's just the way it is. i wish i could do something, but i can't..

holly_da_goddess writes...
at 8:34:33pm on 1/8/07

Look, all I'm about is trying to do the right thing. Yeah, I messed up, but you did too!! how in the world can you expect me to be perfect when you were doing something worse than that?? it's hypocritical to have that mindset. He's my friend and I care about him. Making me not talk to him ever again isn't fair, but if that's what it HAS to take, then fine. killing yourself over a stupid move i made isn't going to help you or me or anyone else. it'd kill my heart. howcould you possible think i wouldn't mind..

holly_da_goddess writes...
at 10:07:54pm on 1/7/07

and that notebook shows how much you care about me...thank you for everything..

holly_da_goddess writes...
at 9:58:26pm on 1/7/07

im so sorry..

holly_da_goddess writes...
at 9:58:06pm on 1/7/07

im kind of falling apart here derek...
to be blunt: Leo is a great friend to me and i refuse to see him get hurt. Second, you need to realize that I make mistakes just like you do.

You're not the only human around here.

holly_da_goddess writes...
at 9:05:38pm on 1/7/07

thank you