How I have been feeling lately
Posted on: April 4, 2015, at 02:17:07am

Now no one will be able to do me what you had already have. Fucking bullshit. Congrats, is this really what you wanted? Was I just someone who wasnt enough? I gave you all I had and you do this now? You just set me aside and labeled me as a second priority in your head.

It is said that it is only the people who love you the most say "I hate you." Well god damn me im so in love then. I fucking hate you. Not for who you are, thats who I love the most. I hate what you did to me.
..and I hate what you have been causing me to do to myself. I'm so god damn lonely, you don't know how long I have been waiting to meet someone like you.. and because of the current events that have unfolded, my beliefs amd my hopes were evisicrated. That's what makes me so sad nowadays. Being something that could've. Unreached potential, being inadequate.. have I worked so hard to only end up short-handed? I pulled my own weight, I carried yours, all of yours, as well as many others at the time and then some, is this really where I want to end up? Is this really where you're putting me? Did the things we do mean anything? How about the things we did together? Can you at least give me an answer this: did I ever really make you feel any different? All I ever did was adore you. Why did those feelings that you said you had change?
All you do now is make me sad. You're tearing me apart. :) I hope you will eventually realize that.