Life Has Just Caught Up...
Posted on: May 15, 2011, at 08:22:34pm

It's May 15... Wow does time ever feel slow.
Most things in my life have been drastically altered since I've been finished school... and everything has finally crept up. I haven't actually realized how much has changed in such a small amount of time. It really makes you wonder how much we're conditioned to account for change, even when its especially deterimental to one's self worth.

More some, me being one of those people, I sense that change radically affects the body, obviously we're uncomfortable around entirely new surroundings, let alone being forced to make a pattern amidst strange particulars that is also unfamiliar. I've recently moved out of my parents place (more or less kicked out) and found a house to live in while my friend is up north for the summer. I'm basically downtown London, close to all the buses I need to go. I'm not complaining about the place, even the cost is fairly decent... this is just a big change from living at home. I will admit I am a pretty independant person, and I've also realized that in relationships.

I broke up with my girlfriend a couple days after I got the lease in place... it's been about three weeks. We must again visit that unfamiliar boarders that have fallen into my lap. It's just lonely being stuck in a new home with two other roomates just after you've got out of a 1.5 year relationship. I don't like sympathy, but I'm just trying to effectively express how I feel about my given situation.

In lieu of this, it has been 2 weeks being adjusted to this place. I am finally getting comfortable living hear. Working full time at my job really helps... I'm living moderately comfortable working 4 days a week and I'm also paying for school.
There is something I am exceptionally proud of.. I am doing this all by myself. I'm paying for my rent, for the past three years I have paid for my tuition all by myself, I pay for all my necessities (cellphone, booze money, spending money) and I also drive a car. I'm trying to make something of myself in a world where you must submit to employment in order to live well.

Today, I have really reflected upon my current life situation and have found it both a challenge and a luxury. Although I am at peace with some of the problems that have been going on in my life, I am rather concerned about living on my own, as this is my first time being completely independant.
I have not been on in some time, and I'm glad I've decided to write this, as reflecting on life and being able to anticipate what life will throw at you is essential to accepting life for what it is, and to always enjoy and respect what randomly falls into your lap.