Disfuntional Heart
Posted on: October 19, 2008, at 01:31:23pm

I trap this disfunctional heart within me,
it not able to love so easily,
it's not normal to feel so non empty,
it's not reliable for me to love you so intentionally,
but I do.

Is it a crime that your voice takes the darkness away?
Is it horrible that I always need you to stay?
Is it that bad that just the mere thought you you being gone tears me up inside,
tears me up so badly,
that i can't do much of anything but sit here,
bland to the world,
a nobody.

This disfunctional heart wants to be left alone,
so please, don't let me dive too much longer,
with your love that i feed off of to wake up each morning,
to thrive me to pick up a pen and write,
to encourage me to go out and be somebody,
leave my disfuntional hurt alone,
because i don't know how much it can take anymore.