Faintest Songs, so many tears
Posted on: October 11, 2008, at 08:00:00pm

I chose to live life on the edge,
to feel all the grief and all of the dread,
I've said things that i wouldn't have ever said,
and especially shed the faintest tears of the most saddest songs.

See, I'm only human,
but my emotions overun my thoughts.
Just when i think im completely obsessed,
it gets so much worse.
I wonder why every damn song that comes on reminds me of you,
why every freakin poem that i write and comes from my heart is of you.
I can't explain how you make me feel
so im giving up writing poems on you, I'm foreal.

The melody of Mayday Parade's song 'Jaime All over' plays and somehow his voice reminds me of yours,
somehow when he speaks his lyrics it makes me think of you,
desire you,
but now....I can't anymore.

What happens when the music stops?
What happens when reality starts?
Do i continue to shut myself out with music,
headphiones in ears,
feet tapping the floor,
blocking out truth?
Do i take off my armor and expose myself to the world,
when i know that it's a 'dog eat dog' world and i would die eventually.

Why can't my tears seem to stop when i think of your arms wrapped around mine,
when they're all just thoughts but never the real thing,
they're never real,
this life isn't real,
this love CAN'T be real,
what i feel,
I can't explain.


I'll hide,
I'll hide behind these headphones,
I'll close my eyes and hum to the sound of Mayday Parade,
tears streaming down my face,
like it's suppose to:
'please don't tell me, that I'm dreaming, when all i ever wanted was to, dream another sunset with you...'