So..

**Tarrik** · 11-10-2013, 05:43 PM

I thought i was dead..and was woken up by 2 police officers..which had a lot of questions..but were really nice to me..

Yes..I did try to kill myself..I obviously failed..I'm not entirely grateful to be alive right now though..but that will maybe change with time..

Yes..I'm really depressed....And i'm hurting in many ways..One of which is my stomach right now..bleh

I worried a lot of you....My friends....I'm sorry..I had no idea the thread turned into what it did..

Thank you Max for calling the police..I'm going to get help

**.Layne.** · 11-10-2013, 05:46 PM

**Netjet!** · 11-10-2013, 05:46 PM

Tarrik, man, we are ALL here for you. I don't know what else to say but I'm so glad that you're still with us.

**rCaliberGX** · 11-10-2013, 05:47 PM

i'm not sure what to say about this

**.Layne.** · 11-10-2013, 05:47 PM

No one here deserves to die nomattrt what

**Hakulyte** · 11-10-2013, 05:49 PM

Do you want to talk about it or it's just a test to see how many people sympathize?

**Tarrik** · 11-10-2013, 05:52 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Hakulyte

Do you want to talk about it or it's just a test to see how many people sympathize?

..what do you mean sympathize..? I'm not doing this for attention..Im doing this because i worried you all and i wanted to (regretfully, because i look fucking stupid now) let you know i was okay..

I've had depression for years, it's been getting worse lately..I was trying to cope with a break up last night and i went over the edge..

top · 11-10-2013, 05:53 PM

good stuff, happy ending.

**Hakulyte** · 11-10-2013, 05:54 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Tarrik

..what do you mean sympathize..? I'm not doing this for attention..Im doing this because i worried you all and i wanted to (regretfully, because i look fucking stupid now) let you know i was okay..

I've had depression for years, it's been getting worse lately..I was trying to cope with a break up last night and i went over the edge..

What's making you depressed? Assuming you don't mind sharing about it.

**mr_candy** · 11-10-2013, 05:56 PM

Not a topic you expect to see on an games website

TheEpicGamer2010 · 11-10-2013, 05:56 PM

Thank god you are alright man. We call care about you.

**blindreper1179** · 11-10-2013, 05:56 PM

Glad you're ok and getting help.

Evnoir · 11-10-2013, 05:57 PM

I don't care if you don't me at all, I'm really grateful you're alive.

DotKritic · 11-10-2013, 05:59 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by mr_candy

Not a topic you expect to see on an games website

This is called Chit Chat.

A lot of people are glad you are okay. This site can't handle another FFR user passing away.

**RagedBerserker** · 11-10-2013, 06:00 PM

Honestly, you have a lot of people that seem to care for you, even people you might not realize.

When I saw the thread I was honestly a bit shaken, and I don't even know you, but I know what things you have done for others (I mean FFRMania project is just one thing I am personally aware of) and it just seemed to be pretty unreal to think what could have happened.

I seriously hope things start looking up man.

**Tarrik** · 11-10-2013, 06:01 PM

Thank you everyone..You're like a second family to me..I just got off the phone to a psychologist and have an appointment to see them..probably get anti-depressents out of it..Will also speak to a counciler. Hakulyte, i would explain..but despite FFR being my 2nd home, i can't go into depth about that stuff here..I would rather speak to a professional.

**xXAll-ProXx** · 11-10-2013, 06:04 PM

I expected more from the FFR community. This doesn't seem to be a cry for attention, and even if it is, so be it. He is clearly having a lot of issues. If you don't have anything to contribute, then don't.

Tarrik, I'm glad you're alive and even though I haven't talked to you in a while I'd be glad to keep in touch with you again.

**yo man im awesome** · 11-10-2013, 06:11 PM

Good to see you again, Tarrik. Good to see you.

**omega_grunt666** · 11-10-2013, 06:12 PM

Just remember you've got a ton of people here who care about you, Plenty of people to talk to here should you feel the need to vent anything, or if you're just looking for a distraction.

Life can be really shitty some times, and its not healthy to take it all on alone, don't be afraid to open up a little. Keeping everything inside/to yourself can be very destructive, its good you are getting some help, Sorry it had to be something like this to finally act as a catalyst but the important thing is you are alright.

Now you don't really know me all that well (Nor I, you), I'm not very active on the site, but you should know that your actions in the community have had a positive influence on my experiences here. And I'm sure many would agree, you seem like a very nice person. So I really hope everything works out well for you, I wish you the best of luck with life and your recovery.

**.Layne.** · 11-10-2013, 06:13 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Evnoir

I don't care if you don't me at all, I'm really grateful you're alive.

reference

11-10-2013, 05:43 PM	#1
Tarrik D7 Elite Keymasher Join Date: May 2007 Location: Australia Age: 33 Posts: 2,240	So.. I thought i was dead..and was woken up by 2 police officers..which had a lot of questions..but were really nice to me.. Yes..I did try to kill myself..I obviously failed..I'm not entirely grateful to be alive right now though..but that will maybe change with time.. Yes..I'm really depressed....And i'm hurting in many ways..One of which is my stomach right now..bleh I worried a lot of you....My friends....I'm sorry..I had no idea the thread turned into what it did.. Thank you Max for calling the police..I'm going to get help

11-10-2013, 05:46 PM	#2
.Layne. ~~ Join Date: Dec 2012 Posts: 711	Re: So.. Wtf __________________

11-10-2013, 05:46 PM	#3
Netjet! Sic itur ad astra Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Ottawa, Canada Age: 30 Posts: 4,700	Re: So.. Tarrik, man, we are ALL here for you. I don't know what else to say but I'm so glad that you're still with us. __________________ RIP Steve Van Ness <3

11-10-2013, 05:47 PM	#5
.Layne. ~~ Join Date: Dec 2012 Posts: 711	Re: So.. No one here deserves to die nomattrt what __________________

11-10-2013, 05:49 PM	#6
Hakulyte the Haku Join Date: Jul 2005 Age: 35 Posts: 4,521	Re: So.. Do you want to talk about it or it's just a test to see how many people sympathize?

11-10-2013, 05:53 PM	#8
top Banned Join Date: Apr 2012 Posts: 1,907	Re: So.. good stuff, happy ending.

11-10-2013, 05:56 PM	#10
mr_candy SPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED Join Date: Jul 2008 Posts: 196	Re: So.. Not a topic you expect to see on an games website

11-10-2013, 05:56 PM	#11
TheEpicGamer2010 FFR Player Join Date: Mar 2011 Posts: 9	Re: So.. Thank god you are alright man. We call care about you. __________________ “Inherited Will, The Destiny of the Age, and The Dreams of the People. As long as people continue to pursue the meaning of Freedom, these things will never cease to be!" - Gol D. Roger”

11-10-2013, 05:57 PM	#13
Evnoir _(:3」∠)_ Join Date: Sep 2008 Posts: 978	Re: So.. I don't care if you don't me at all, I'm really grateful you're alive.

11-10-2013, 06:00 PM	#15
RagedBerserker Hello Kitty Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: New York Age: 32 Posts: 1,296	Re: So.. Honestly, you have a lot of people that seem to care for you, even people you might not realize. When I saw the thread I was honestly a bit shaken, and I don't even know you, but I know what things you have done for others (I mean FFRMania project is just one thing I am personally aware of) and it just seemed to be pretty unreal to think what could have happened. I seriously hope things start looking up man. __________________ I'm just an old boy now

11-10-2013, 06:01 PM	#16
Tarrik D7 Elite Keymasher Join Date: May 2007 Location: Australia Age: 33 Posts: 2,240	Re: So.. Thank you everyone..You're like a second family to me..I just got off the phone to a psychologist and have an appointment to see them..probably get anti-depressents out of it..Will also speak to a counciler. Hakulyte, i would explain..but despite FFR being my 2nd home, i can't go into depth about that stuff here..I would rather speak to a professional.

11-10-2013, 06:04 PM	#17
xXAll-ProXx FFR Veteran Join Date: Nov 2010 Posts: 2,040	Re: So.. I expected more from the FFR community. This doesn't seem to be a cry for attention, and even if it is, so be it. He is clearly having a lot of issues. If you don't have anything to contribute, then don't. Tarrik, I'm glad you're alive and even though I haven't talked to you in a while I'd be glad to keep in touch with you again. __________________ I have a dig bick.

11-10-2013, 06:12 PM	#19
omega_grunt666 Nescio quid faciam Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Edmonton, AB Posts: 892	Re: So.. Just remember you've got a ton of people here who care about you, Plenty of people to talk to here should you feel the need to vent anything, or if you're just looking for a distraction. Life can be really shitty some times, and its not healthy to take it all on alone, don't be afraid to open up a little. Keeping everything inside/to yourself can be very destructive, its good you are getting some help, Sorry it had to be something like this to finally act as a catalyst but the important thing is you are alright. Now you don't really know me all that well (Nor I, you), I'm not very active on the site, but you should know that your actions in the community have had a positive influence on my experiences here. And I'm sure many would agree, you seem like a very nice person. So I really hope everything works out well for you, I wish you the best of luck with life and your recovery. __________________

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