Passing away of Steve aka Jellygod

[L0NEvvolf]

Originally Posted by All_That_Chaz

PS - Somehow I managed to tape over all of my footage from the FFR Convention in 2008 without ever getting it to my computer. I feel incredibly stupid. I had footage of jellygod ;_;

Ive been trying to find the pictures I had of him but alas cannot find those ether. We were inseparable at the convention. I remember that we went into one of the empty rooms and started playing FFR on the projection screen. It was funny as hell. And we were paranoid we were gonna get caught cause it was supposed to be devoted to playing some anime. No one was there so It couldn't have been that great. Losing him has made me feel an overwhelming lonelyness that I cannot explain.

After the convention we talked on the phone alot. We wanted to hang out again and meet up sometime. We planed on meeting up at the next years convention but that never took place.

Over the last year we lost contact. Stoped talking, and playing xbox live. Now I wish I could hear his voice on my phone again, or see him face to face even one last time.

Someone asked me the other day at work what was bothering me as they could tell something was. I burst out crying. I just couldn't hold it back. Just knowing that someone as great as Steve is gone, and that it could have been prevented.

I just hope that he is somewhere better. He was to good for this world. No matter what he would always be there for anyone that needed a friend, or someone to talk to. I just wish I was there for him in the end....

[L0NEvvolf]

Memories live on.
Even when a life has passed
the soul cannot be killed.
A butterfly can move mountians
but a person can change the world
When hope of life has been lost
just realize that there is a cost
and that your soul will still live on
in the countless lives youve touched

When I look back in your photographs
I only now see the pain
in your eyes a lifeless expression
perhaps you had long been dead in spirt
and your bodys all that held you to the ground

I hope you now relaize
looking back down apon the world
the hearts that are crying
bleeding from the pain that you bestowed

you were and are still loved
more than you will ever know
I am honored to have been a part of your life
you were to kind for the world
Rip Steve Van Ness.

I can only ever hope to be half the man you ever were.

[Ickalanda]

Hello everyone. Three weeks ago today was when it happened =[.

I am very thankful for everything I've seen on this site and that Steve was so well liked here.

All of my pictures on my profile have Steve in them and I am going to be uploading more if you would like to take a look. I thought people would appreciate being able to see pictures of Steve to have to remember him by. Luckily I like taking pictures so I have a good number of pictures of Steve from this year.

R.I.P. Steve, I haven't seen you for three weeks, longest we haven't seen each other since we met, if you were still around you'd probably be spending the night right now and we'd be going to get McDonald's breakfast and then playing some more Ping Pong, I miss you man!

[MoopToThePowerOfQ]

wtF? why? rip ming...

[welsh_girl]

Those photos are great, the one of just him smiling right in the camera makes me sad

Merry Chirstmas, Steve!

[vampire366]

R.I.P steve

[Kekeb]

Nothing but respect for jelly.

[Shortboyownz]

D: JELLYGOD .....we will miss you very much..I hope there is enough jelly in jelly heaven for ya.

[andy-o24]

Paying my respects one last time and posting a poem that instantly popped into my head. I hope it's appropriate.

ASCENSION

And if I go,
while you're still here...
Know that I live on,
vibrating to a different measure
--behind a thin veil you cannot see through.
You will not see me,
so you must have faith.
I wait for the time when we can soar together again,
--both aware of each other.
Until then, live your life to its fullest.
And when you need me,
Just whisper my name in your heart,
...I will be there.

"Ascension"
Copyright ©1987, Colleen Corah Hitchcock

-o24

[OrganisM]

I can't condemn the guy for doing what he did. I've been in his spot before; I've just had the fortune of failing my suicide attempts. RIP. This should speak to those who are still thinking of doing the same thing: don't do it. There is so much to experience.

What a horrible thing. Nobody gains from this. My condolences to his family.

[MichaelJCaboose]

Having just seen this message. I feel really bad for not having signed on sooner.
As a member of FFR for some time now, and have spoken to Steve on several occasions, this really hurts. My condolences go out to his family and all his close friends.

love and hugs

Kerrie.

[ilooklikethisallthetime]

Who am I besides myself?
I am not a judge nor a saint,
Nor do I pretend what I ain't.

I love myself for what I've done.
I taught others of love and hate.
In all my years I have now found,

People love me for what I ain't.
My children are my pupils,
In a school where I teach.

I am proud of the work I've done.
But most of all I'm proud to say,
I don't pretend of what I ain't.

This poem was written by my Great Uncle who passed away last year.
I feel it's suitable for this situation.
Jelly was one of the nicest guys I had ever had the privilege of talking to.
Having just found out last night, I still feel terrible for not having signed on sooner.
Seeing all my old friends post makes it hurt more.
I've been crying on and off all day.

R.I.P Steve.
<3

[TheRapingDragon]

I'm the sort of person who would never accept a reason for suicide - I see it as the cowards way out. However I won't deride the thread out of the respect you all have.

From this thread it's nice to know he will be missed. I wonder if he ever realised how many people cared or if you're only displaying it now it's too late.

Perhaps you all should take this as a lesson. Don't be afraid to show your feelings to those whom you care about. Earlier is always better than never can.

[ichliebekase]

Discuss your opinions of suicide in this critical thinking thread, not here. The reason why this thread was made was for people of the community to remember Steve, not to debate over whether or not suicide is good/bad. Suicide in critical thinking, go wild.

[Rubin0]

Why has this been unstickied?

[kommisar]

he's been honored and remembered, time to move on methinks

[Netjet!]

I didn't unstick it myself, but I believe kommisar is right. I'm going to keep it unlocked, but it's really time to move on.

[Ickalanda]

Hello everyone, before this thread passes to far away, I wanted to show you that one of Steve's close friends got a tattoo in memory of Steve that depicts the Rock Band microphone. I thought it was really cool and just saw where he posted it the other day.

Tattoo For Steve

Just thought some of you might like to see how people off of FFR are commemorating him as well.

I hope everyone is doing alright!

~Mick

[Xx{Midnight}xX]

XD That's pretty BA.

[virus003]

That is really ****in cool, that's probably the best thing to do for a friend. I still miss you, Steve.