Sorry for being an asshole lately

[ckj846]

I am very sorry for being such an ass, jerk, ***, or whatever you want to call it. I am currently very very stressed out just from everything and I guess I come to the FFR Forums to vent a little bit. Sorry to everyone that I took my anger out on and those who were hurt by my posts. Well here it is...

My family isn't what you would call a "normal" family. My dad is a passive-agressive man who really doesn't know what is going on half the time. He chooses to ignore the obvious instead of dealing with the problem head on just because he finds it easier or he thinks that ignoring the problem will make it go away. I understand he had a very hard and painful childhood (it doesn't help that my grandmother on his side is an evil asian bitch. It may sound cruel to say that about my grandmother, but how would you feel if you were 8 and you were stuck at her house baby-sitting for 4 days while your grandmother and grandfather decide to drive up to vegas for the week without telling you?) My dad is always cooped up in his room just passing time and every now and again, would get into a fight with my mom about some little thing.

My mom is the crazy menopausal woman who has the shortest temper you could imagine. I would like to think of her as just an immature person stuck in a woman's body. If she doesn't get her way (whether it be something serious or something small as not getting to sit in the front seat. Yes, I'm serious, its happened before) she explodes and then throws a huge tantrum and basically destroys the peace in the house, or even in public. Even something as small as my sister and I wanting some candy, my mom will explode on us saying how it is unhealthy AND THEN go off and the most random topics like how we are irresponsible and then going on about how our grades are dropping and then saying we don't love her. Then she goes cries and runs into her room where she decides to harass my dad about why HE didn't do anything in that situation. She then always claims that my dad doesn't love her and then she continues to take out more of her anger on us (my sister and I). Then she threatens to take my sister and I and move to Visalia (where her parents live) after the divorce. (Notice how I don't use the past tense its because it has happened numerous times and it happened today AGAIN)

Well, my mom finally cracked one night back in January when I actually argued with her and screamed back at her because she was being EXTREMELY unreasonable. Everything crashed on that night when my dad (after being the quiet man for 15 years) decides to step in and try to solve the problem. As if things couldn't get worse, my mom orders my dad and me to move out of the house. So we do for a little bit and then she cries to us and we move back in.

I'm just really stressed out from school and my family so I'm sorry about all this ranting about my issues. I understand if you guys don't care at all because, after all, it is the Internet and for all you know, I could be lying and making this up just for the mere attention. Go ahead and think what you want, I think I just needed a place where I could just talk about my problems. If you guys have been through something similar, could you help me to cope with it or something? This thread was merely to explain my strange behavior these last few days. Any comments are greatly appreciated (well, the serious ones). Thanks.
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