anti-dep withdrawals are the worst

[choof]

but thankfully an act of god or something put in a refill for meds so I get them tomorrow, I thought it would be weeks

fortunately I've had benzos to keep me grounded for the past few days but I've had to take exceedingly high doses
fortunately v2 I've only had to take them a few times

I really need to try something new tho, feels like every time I get on an anti-dep it's good for a while and then starts falling to shit. the next thing to try might be something like lithium or abilify which I am totally open to. this will be the... sixth time I've changed meds? I'm going to straight up bitch my doctor out if he tries to put me on another regular anti-dep because they obviously don't work long term

anyway I'm sorta good right now aside from the fact that some fuckstick in the rhythm game discord straight up encouraged me to kill myself tonight; that's pretty fucking neato.