yo people Keybeat Online is still up

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Originally Posted by stargroup100

Well, I guess it's inevitable that I'd be replying to this.

First of all, in concept KBO is extremely promising, and still is, but there are currently some major issues that I am unable to resolve right now, such as spambots being so aggressive that I had to turn off registration. I have been and am still trying to do what I can to work on it, but it starting to look like a dead end, and it's probably completely out of my control at this point. I've made some major progress and done a lot of work, including a scoring/life system that has been balanced across all difficulties (which no one in the rhythm game industry has done yet), developed an algorithmic approach to calculating the difficulty of a chart quite accurately, planned out concepts for new forms of gameplay that no one has done yet (including 3 different multiplayer modes), and created a structure for the site that handles in-game currency and social media (with bLast). I've also done a lot of independent research and work on rhythm gaming charting in general, and the bulk of my work can even be read here: http://www.cosmovibe.com/ncguide/ So I'm not just all talk and no results.

Secondly, the tension I had in the past with the KBO community was misplaced, exaggerated, and shouldn't have happened in the first place. Due to a combination of my own inexperience, lack of resolve, and desire to maximize interaction with the community, disagreements resulted from how to approach certain design points of the game. Eventually, most of the community ended up being okay with everything, after a lot of successful compromises. My hotheadedness was a result of my determination, passion, and an unstable mental state.

And that brings me to my last point. The reason why #kbo hates me is actually due to a very particular incident. I won't go into detail about the incident in particular but I will explain why it's related. Basically, like I said before, I wasn't very mentally stable a couple of years ago, and compounded with a lot of other issues I had, such as stress, social problems, and naivete, I ended up making a mistake which deeply upset Xiao and GD, and it began to spill over to some of my other relationships as well, such as that with Kommi. There are many reasons why I took a "long hiatus": bLast had problems of his own so he couldn't continue development at the time, I needed some time to get myself sorted out, and given my relationship with the community I figured it was best I lay low for a while. Since then, I've been taking medications which have stablized myself mentally, I've been doing more productive things in my life, and I've got a lot more life experience. You guys can even look back at posts I've made in the past year or so to see the transition I've made. Clearly, however, GD has not let this go. I'd think that after a couple of years this would've dissolved, but it doesn't seem to be the case. It was an honest mistake which I have apologized earnestly for countless times before, but in retrospect it's not even that big of a deal now. Whether or not he ever gets over this, it has nothing to do with me now. I'm disappointed that someone I respected couldn't handle this maturely after all this time, but I don't hold grudges. I welcome anyone who is open and friendly. The only reason I cared about "administrative power" on #kbo was because I felt it was disrespectful to take the name of a community I had developed, and I didn't want the community to detach from the reason why it formed in the first place, which is exactly what happened. Obviously, I don't care anymore, but I feel like a lot of what has been said about me so far has been very one-sided. I never bothered to respond to it because I never felt it necessary, but since everyone's being open here I might as well too.

There have been a couple of people within this community that I've still been talking to occasionally for all this time, so if you don't take my word you can even go ask them for their opinion. At this point, I'm not too concerned with what direction KBO is headed. I'll keep trying to make it work, but if it doesn't recover, I have plenty of ways where I can apply all the work I've already done to other projects in the future. I'm always going to feel a little bit of regret that I didn't get it to work when and how I wanted it to, but I guess not everything has to work out. It's kinda sad how this one incident tore the entire community, but I'm always gonna be here in some way, shape, or form. As much as we make fun of it, there's no question that StepMania has changed my life, mostly for the better. I don't think this post can be a major factor in repairing that chronic damage, but I figured it wouldn't hurt.

This is probably one of the most serious things I've ever written this year LOL

good.


if the community comes back, you aught to listen to it this time around.