I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.

[xNiX]

So lately I've been extremely bitter and I think this has to do with my personal life. For the ones who don't know, I've been active duty in the Air Force for roughly 3 years now. Right after my first year of service, that's when I decided to get involved/hang around the FFR community. On average, I work about 50 hours a week with a schedule that resembles this...

Monday
Fly
Tuesday
Train
Wednesday
Mission Plan
Thursday
Fly
Friday
Train

Everything in my office is micromanaged by my bosses as well. So, after awhile, you really start to get burned out from it. And with that being said, it's been effecting how I have been talking/viewing/treating people.
It's getting to the point where I feel like I need something new in my life, but I don't know exactly what it is. I have a girlfriend who loves me to death, parents that love me as well, and a job in which I can support myself...but I think there is more that I want in life, but I don't necessarily know what it is.

I've bangwagoned, trolled, backstabbed, and also have said things to people here that I probably shouldn't have. With that being said, I'm fully aware that not everyone around here is fond of me at all; therefore, since this is known to me, I'm slowly starting to isolate myself around the people I know in real life, and on FFR as well. I guess I feel like I need to shun myself at times just to make other people happy.

Anyways, I feel like this needs to be said.
Here is a list of apologies to the people who I know/think I offended....I really don't know how sincere I can be about this.

- Sorry to AJ and Kayla for giving you guys so much shit.
- Sorry to Middie for being a dick to you most of the time.
- Sorry for the dumb post(s) that I put in threads at times.
- Sorry for leaving and going in Team Blaze like it's BK. (Have it your way reference for the ones who don't get it.) I actually like quite a few of you in there.
- Sorry for getting drunk in Skype calls and saying things that I shouldn't have been saying. I've stopped drinking while talking on Skype...for the most part.
- Sorry Dylan for ignoring you sometimes. I think I would've quit this game if you weren't really there to just stick around.
- Sorry to anyone that I acted elitist to (even though I fucking suck at this game)
- Sorry for procrastination on profiles or any artwork.
- Sorry for acting like a big puss right now.

I don't expect a lot of feedback on this, but it makes me feel good to get this all out there in the open.