Depression

[Pseudo Enigma]

Originally Posted by leonid

If you can simply "ignore" or "take your mind off" of depression, chances are you are okay. Depression is a disease. It requires medical assistance.

Maybe I am not saying it right. I do have depression, I am diagnosed with Depression with Anxiety. I know full well the meaning of depression, the difference between "depression" and "sadness." Mine comes in waves for some reason, and when it comes it's hard to even make myself get out of bed. I feel sick, and I have half the energy I had before I got into it. I sleep a lot longer and I can't get through a day at school without fighting with someone. I feel apathetic towards people things and situations around me, and I have a hard time relating to anyone, let alone sitting in the same room as them.
But what gets me out of this cycle is forcing myself. I force myself through everything. It is extremely hard, almost like trying to push on the side of a house in order for it to move. Eventually I realize that things are going to be okay, and that if I keep myself happy as much as possible I can forget about how hard life can be, and ignore how hard it is to do simple things.

It's not a "fix," it's not a "solution," it's a temporary measure for dealing with life. If I don't, no one will want to be around me, and my life might as well be compared to the slime on the walls. There are ways to deal with depression, and I hate when people think that it's just a one-shot "you're screwed bud, welcome to the life of taking pills erryday" sort of thing. The simple movement of thinking differently and keeping your chin up can work wonders, and it helps me forget that life is horrible and that I don't know why I am doing anything.

"Why do we do things? What is the point? Why am I supposed to wake up every day? Why can't I just sit here and be unhappy?"

It stops all those thoughts from keeping me down every day. It helps me tune out that set of ideas from clogging my spirit and draining me everyday of my one life. If anyone here knew what the **** it felt like, you would be helping too. Telling me that I don't have depression is a bit of an insult. I can't explain how bad it feels, and no one should ever know it personally.

edit: also it is not a disease, it's a mental disability.