Depression.

[SethSquall]

Interesting to read what you guys say. I suffer from depression. I take tablets every night that help me feel the need to get up in the morning. Although, it looks as though the effects may be wearing off and it worries me. Don't worry, I see my Doctor regularly and I'm not about to go do anything stupid. For me, it's more I worry about my future, although the amount I worry about it never seems to motivate me to do anything productive in my life. Things I once thought I could do that would be fun and would benefit me never worked out. I was never happy in it overall.

It first started when I was 15/16. I used to smoke weed for what seemed recreation but until after it was too late I realized that it was to try and suppress the extreme panic I had of really growing up. It grew inside me until one day, the worst day of my life, I lost the only thing that made me happy. I had my first panic attack. Ever since then I suffered from Anxiety and Depression. This is why I could never grasp why people called it a decease. Yes for the most part I felt that people called people like me "Depressed" because they felt anyone who didn't agree with the way society works had something wrong with them and needed to be cured. Maybe they didn't want to cure the opinion but more knew that no matter how the depressed felt about the world they needed to accept it, as it would never change. This was a huge factor to my Depression, although it was one I could live with. The one that pushed me over the edge was the huge heartbreak I felt when loosing the only person I thought I could rely on at the time. The only person that made me happy. It was more or less the only person in my life at the time, 100% of my time was spent with. I won't get further into it as you guys probably think I'm blabbering on enough about myself as it is. And for that I apologize. Anyway, perhaps my troubles were to heavy for the both of us.

So anyway, if Depression is a disease then how did I "catch" it? I find it strange. I became depressed. It wasn't anything to do with my bodies immune system. Somethings happened in my life and as a result I suffered from anxiety and became Depressed.

Now anyway, to focus more on depression. I don't think Depression has anything to do with evolution and evolution will never get rid of it as It wouldn't need to. I understand that it can be a huge hindrance to the progression on some us all but overall it's not that big of a threat to humanity is it. For the most part we have Depression under control. If we evolved to have these feelings then maybe Depression does have it's uses. When someone dies we are depressed. We morn as way of getting the sadness out are system, it would just seem it's harder for some maybe.