What makes you happy?

[Laharl]

I honestly can't think of anything that makes me happy.

I know there are a few things that bring me little pleasure, but it's always so fading. Doing well in some game, winning a little competition.. that's usually a nice quick upper, but the thing is, I'm just as likely to lose as win and that's just another thing that will bring me down if it happens.

Stupid jokes are okay, but honestly make me grin for a second or two and then I'm back to wishing I had whatever it is in my life I'm missing.

I believe in God. The funny thing is, having that knowledge doesn't seem to dispell anything lately. (Please don't go more into this, anyone that picks up this thread. I really don't feel like discussing the topic.)

I have a few friends. But just a few. And when I am actually able to hang around with them, I'm just as sad if nor worse off than before they came over.

I'm so confused. Maybe I should put this in my blog instead of here, but oh well. I'm gonna regret this. *click*