Premaritial Sex

[VampyressKyttie]

Sorry I took it so personally it's just that do not consider Shayne and I to be a failure or mistake in any way.

What I have with Shayne is nothing like what I had with Jeff. I was in love with Jeff in the beginning but then he became abusive and I wasn't in love with the person that he had become. I always hoped that he would change but he didn't. I had sex with him after he became abusive and I was unhappy but I thought it might help in some way, I see that the logic behind that was dumb and imature.

With Shayne I know that I am in love because even after almost two years I still get butterflies in my stomach when he does something romantic. We truly care for eachother, he never hurts me on purpose and we talk through are problems because we truly want to make this last. I was scared at first that having sex with Shayne might hurt our relationship but it only made it stronger, I'm sharing myself with the one I love. When the time came and I felt ready he asked me a few times if I was sure and I reassured him that I felt it was the right time. When making love with Shayne I can feel the difference between sex with him and sex with Jeff in my heart. I don't feel like I'm being used or anything I just feel close to Shayne and loved.

I wanted to wait until I was married because I was raised that way but when I got older I realised that waiting until marriage wasn't right for me. I do not regret having sex with Shayne at all and even if him and I break up I will never see him as a mistake because of the love that we have shared. I really don't know how else to explain it but until you have had the experience of being in deep love and making love you can't possibly know how it feels.