08-7-2013, 12:17 PM | #1 |
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I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.
So lately I've been extremely bitter and I think this has to do with my personal life. For the ones who don't know, I've been active duty in the Air Force for roughly 3 years now. Right after my first year of service, that's when I decided to get involved/hang around the FFR community. On average, I work about 50 hours a week with a schedule that resembles this...
Monday Fly Tuesday Train Wednesday Mission Plan Thursday Fly Friday Train Everything in my office is micromanaged by my bosses as well. So, after awhile, you really start to get burned out from it. And with that being said, it's been effecting how I have been talking/viewing/treating people. It's getting to the point where I feel like I need something new in my life, but I don't know exactly what it is. I have a girlfriend who loves me to death, parents that love me as well, and a job in which I can support myself...but I think there is more that I want in life, but I don't necessarily know what it is. I've bangwagoned, trolled, backstabbed, and also have said things to people here that I probably shouldn't have. With that being said, I'm fully aware that not everyone around here is fond of me at all; therefore, since this is known to me, I'm slowly starting to isolate myself around the people I know in real life, and on FFR as well. I guess I feel like I need to shun myself at times just to make other people happy. Anyways, I feel like this needs to be said. Here is a list of apologies to the people who I know/think I offended....I really don't know how sincere I can be about this. - Sorry to AJ and Kayla for giving you guys so much shit. - Sorry to Middie for being a dick to you most of the time. - Sorry for the dumb post(s) that I put in threads at times. - Sorry for leaving and going in Team Blaze like it's BK. (Have it your way reference for the ones who don't get it.) I actually like quite a few of you in there. - Sorry for getting drunk in Skype calls and saying things that I shouldn't have been saying. I've stopped drinking while talking on Skype...for the most part. - Sorry Dylan for ignoring you sometimes. I think I would've quit this game if you weren't really there to just stick around. - Sorry to anyone that I acted elitist to (even though I fucking suck at this game) - Sorry for procrastination on profiles or any artwork. - Sorry for acting like a big puss right now. I don't expect a lot of feedback on this, but it makes me feel good to get this all out there in the open.
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08-7-2013, 12:29 PM | #2 |
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Re: I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.
still thought you were cool
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08-7-2013, 12:40 PM | #3 |
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Re: I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.
When your contract comes up and it's time to reenlist, demand a new unit or ETS.
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08-7-2013, 12:43 PM | #4 |
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Re: I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.
You were always cool with me and this post just proves how good of a person you are
big up to you As for your personal future only you can determine what you wish to do to bring yourself happiness. |
08-7-2013, 12:46 PM | #5 |
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Re: I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.
always be awesome to me Angie <3
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08-7-2013, 12:46 PM | #6 |
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Re: I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.
Take this with a grain of salt (it's not intended to be rude): while you have apologized, your future actions will speak volumes about how truthful your apology is. Admittedly, I am someone who definitely holds grudges, and I still have issues with a few people about what happened in the past, but that's in the past...
Either way, it's nice of you coming out in the open like that in attempts to make amends. |
08-7-2013, 01:19 PM | #7 |
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08-7-2013, 01:20 PM | #8 |
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Re: I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.
While they were times you have been somewhat rude on the forums, I am sure most people on here still sees you as a chill dude. I never really had much problems with you to be honest. I still see you as a very honest and generous person with a big goal in life. Also, there's going to be stress in life, but it's your choice whether to let it affect you or not.
lol I bet money I am one of those people :P
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08-7-2013, 01:21 PM | #9 |
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Re: I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.
You're a cool dude Asher, I got nothing against you
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08-7-2013, 01:24 PM | #10 |
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08-7-2013, 01:28 PM | #11 |
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08-7-2013, 04:33 PM | #12 | |||
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Re: I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.
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I hate to say it, but sometimes you don't act the way you normally do because it is the internet. For example, I would never get a sex change just so I can portray myself as a small asian girl named Angie; however, on the internet, I could act like whoever I wanted. That still doesn't justify what I did was right though. So again, that's why I'm sorry. Quote:
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I don't necessarily believe that there are bad people on FFR. Just people who make poor decisions. I have a very short patience level (I think developed this from being in the service), which can make it frustrating for me on FFR. Once "X" amount of people have annoyed/pissed me off in some way, I start acting like a douche. If there is one thing I learned, FFR's community is a much different breed than the environment I'm used to being in. I just wish I knew a more effective way of coping/dealing with stress than the way I have been.
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08-7-2013, 05:10 PM | #13 |
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Re: I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.
Hell really did freeze over. Shit, I hate the cold.
In reality, I wouldn't be hard on yourself over being a dick to me. It is only kind of fair. (Kind of is a bit of an understatement to most.) Hopefully you change the way you seem to want to though. Good luck with that. |
08-7-2013, 06:50 PM | #14 |
ごめんなさい (/ω\)
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Re: I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.
wow man ruguru/asher/nix/etc. I didn't know it was that hard for you. Have you ever thought about finding a new job? It may not be easy, (if it's even possible at all) but this one seems to be burning a hole in ya, and it might be worth considering.
Sometimes we've had conversations where I feel like I pissed you off, but now I understand why you've been on edge lately. You got a supportive community here at FFR so feel free to make yourself at home again at any time. |
08-7-2013, 06:55 PM | #15 |
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Re: I don't know why, but I feel like I should make this thread.
I have and always will love your sig :3
Texan <3 from me to you.
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