FFR Rap battle contest

The time is here, another new year
Can’t quite pin down, just how I’ve been feeling
Maybe if I write it out, I can cast aside my doubt
Let’s take a moment and own up to some introspection
Man I felt it hard, but you know how those feelings are far from
Scars from war and torture, or a fatal disorder so
You have no reason to cry, keep it inside, carbonate your fucking mind and
Cap off that bottle you fought to keep down with those thoughts from the night that so graciously hound you.
Mothers unwell, can hardly move at only 50. Kept her pain to herself to pay the bills and feed her family.
I can’t stand seeing her like this, or fight the thoughts that haunt me as I write this
Cause maybe she’d be okay today if only she had the heart to say
I can’t keep this up, my body's had enough, or
How bout a brother whose down in a spiral where sobrieties pain and getting high’s a denial
I try my best to keep him up, make peace with the world even if it’s tough but
I’m not much better than he is with anxiety waiting to seep in
It’s less like a feeling and more like you’re dealing with bad shit you and ya friend smoked in his car
Death gripping your chest, you’re counting your breaths
Maybe a minute a moment a day, as long as it wants to that burden will stay
Never truly over, just wishing to be sober
My turmoil will never be [move over]
Can’t sit by and let you hide from your good side any longer
If you put the focus on only the stuff that’s rough all that negativity will keep on adding up
Then damn, before you know it, life’s ran its course and all you’re showing the
world is nothing a bleak soul mourning, a body that’s weak and a mind in torment
Remember your drive, to better, your mind
Getting a semblance of self confidence, being accountable to my interests
Your progress, is high, anxiety denied
Think of the weeks in a row that’d you’d freak but now you’ve got one hell of a sobering streak!
My strength, is growing, my body, is flowing
I look in the mirror and like what I see, finally feel like I’ve got energy.
And surely I can’t deny my friends are close, love them the most
I’ve got a mind to keep climbing out, life’s been better trying than just laying down
I just want to be happy with myself inside and out