I'll start from the assumption that none of you knows me really well, and i never really talked about my personal life on here. The last period has been pretty rough, culminating in something that has happened tonight which shakes me quite a bit.
Let me explain: In 2009, i was studying at college and my father proposed me to open a graphic design and print studio together. At first, it was supposed to be a part time job for me while i kept studying - he would manage it the rest of the time. After some weeks, it became clear it was impossible to do both at the same time, so i dropped uni to work full time. This job started with great premises! We opened a studio in the center of the city i live in, and started to get known around. I love this endeavoir, there's no job like another one, it's got creativity, variety, and a certain degree of freedom of expression. I spent every day of the last 4 years living with it, however things did not go so well after a while. As you may know there's a worldwide financial crisis going on, and since Italy has always had a shaky ground, thanks to both its inane leaders (laughed at by the entire globe) and the people who ultimately crave for that kind of leadership (i guess we get what we deserve!) things have been going down a lot. While we experienced a small increment in earnings through these years, tax increments surpassed them by quite a while. We lost some customers too, thanks to a massive closedown of businesses, right now it's ~20k a day which close down, an absurd amount for a small country like this. In the end, after so much hardships to barely reach a balance between expenses and earnings, making for around a year some little money each month (by little i mean far less than minimum wage), from the start of 2013 that little money flow has stopped completely. We can only pay off expenses, and that's it, not very cool considering there are major tax increases coming up.
So this brings anxiety and conflicts inside the workplace, and arguments about the fact that what i do is never good enough, and never enough at all. My father makes plans which all rely on my execution, overlapping them constantly. I am saddened, demotivated, without any money saved at all and still, i am in debt with my father since he spent nearly all his savings on this adventure. Today we argued once again and he prompted me to do more, believe in this or leave altogether. He seems to believe that we should keep doing this even if we make no living out of it, just because he's convinced this could work through the internet or other mediums. But the thing is, i'm exhausted, on the verge of a nervous breakdown and can't take it anymore. I'm probably going to leave, both the work and the city, if not the country. But first i thought about sharing my experience with you. Maybe someone here has good advice on a situation like this and/or has lived one.
What do you think, FFR?
Let me explain: In 2009, i was studying at college and my father proposed me to open a graphic design and print studio together. At first, it was supposed to be a part time job for me while i kept studying - he would manage it the rest of the time. After some weeks, it became clear it was impossible to do both at the same time, so i dropped uni to work full time. This job started with great premises! We opened a studio in the center of the city i live in, and started to get known around. I love this endeavoir, there's no job like another one, it's got creativity, variety, and a certain degree of freedom of expression. I spent every day of the last 4 years living with it, however things did not go so well after a while. As you may know there's a worldwide financial crisis going on, and since Italy has always had a shaky ground, thanks to both its inane leaders (laughed at by the entire globe) and the people who ultimately crave for that kind of leadership (i guess we get what we deserve!) things have been going down a lot. While we experienced a small increment in earnings through these years, tax increments surpassed them by quite a while. We lost some customers too, thanks to a massive closedown of businesses, right now it's ~20k a day which close down, an absurd amount for a small country like this. In the end, after so much hardships to barely reach a balance between expenses and earnings, making for around a year some little money each month (by little i mean far less than minimum wage), from the start of 2013 that little money flow has stopped completely. We can only pay off expenses, and that's it, not very cool considering there are major tax increases coming up.
So this brings anxiety and conflicts inside the workplace, and arguments about the fact that what i do is never good enough, and never enough at all. My father makes plans which all rely on my execution, overlapping them constantly. I am saddened, demotivated, without any money saved at all and still, i am in debt with my father since he spent nearly all his savings on this adventure. Today we argued once again and he prompted me to do more, believe in this or leave altogether. He seems to believe that we should keep doing this even if we make no living out of it, just because he's convinced this could work through the internet or other mediums. But the thing is, i'm exhausted, on the verge of a nervous breakdown and can't take it anymore. I'm probably going to leave, both the work and the city, if not the country. But first i thought about sharing my experience with you. Maybe someone here has good advice on a situation like this and/or has lived one.
What do you think, FFR?
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