12-29-2008, 01:02 PM
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I am going NUTS!
Right, I will try to type this as long as I don't get another attack... My state is very fluctuating atm due to the holiday season and I am getting these really strange attacks atm... I also called the shrink and she told me tooo get bek at 5 jan... wich sux atm..
But, ok here goes link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hqfl80Royrc have fun I am not having any atm |
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12-29-2008, 01:17 PM
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The Chill Keeper
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Re: I am going NUTS!
This thread makes no sense to me at all.
What is the purpose in this?
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12-29-2008, 01:35 PM
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Re: I am going NUTS!
It's a nice tune regardless
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12-29-2008, 01:40 PM
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Re: I am going NUTS!
Yes it is. I'm enjoying it atm.
Very repetitive, but I don't mind if its a song like this atm. Sounds like something out of The Matrix atm. P.S. atm
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12-29-2008, 01:42 PM
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Re: I am going NUTS!
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Seriously... lets put it straight.. I will go off the record here, throw everything I have got on my keyboard and type my true feelings as I feel this at this single moment: LIFE SUXX!! As I have always says in dutch "het leven is een aan een schakeling van dieptepunten".. in english, it will probably mean something like "life is nothing more then a piece of **** that stacks up". I am getting to a point that always happends to me every year... Holiday season, I ****ing hate it... and I ****ing always will! It is the only season that you hang out with your family, have fun and what not. Well.. Sorry to say: My family has dies most of it anyways. This is the season that I hate the most because it also reminds me of times that I personally don't want to remember. I miss my mom, I miss my dad (which I never got to know that well), I miss everything that everyone else has... socialize with friends (I don't have many), have fun with family (I don't have much left), remember the good old times with them... really, I can remember that I got almost choked by my mom on christmas eve... Nice memory... Really, every year... it is the same ****ing buisness... these memories always return. And this year, it feels like I am litlerly choking to death. It feels like something is stuck there, and each time I swollow, it feels like the same deal... Happy holidays... Have fun with that. Yesterday evening, it struck me the most.. heck, I can recall last friday night even better... it was the night that I went to the emergency service that single evening since I was trembling like a madman, and some something was choking me to death... and I didn't realize death was that scary.. My heart is weak atm, everytime I think of what is happening inside my body, I start to sweat... My heart starts to pound like a madman, and the only thing that keeps me away from all this horror... is making music. Even while I type this piece of garbage, my mind is going bezerk! It feels like emotions are typing this, and this is not me typing this. I feel like the freaking hulk... but I am not turning green yet. I just have this really big "pulse" in the back of my throat that says "RAAAAWR!" and screams for attention... I have no ways out of this atm... It is just a matter of waiting until this whole thing just passes away... I am scared ****less! I am frightneged by myself, and the things I can do... I am not in control of myself... My body basicly tells me how to act right now. And at this point, I feel pissed off as hell! Basicly screaming for revenge for the things that happened to me in the past! seriously, if you ask why I post this... ask FFR.. they asked me to come up with an explination why I act this way! There! I have said it! It comes from the heart... or mind.. or what ever is controlling me atm... I dont know what it is... |
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12-29-2008, 01:55 PM
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Re: I am going NUTS!
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good work as always hydlide sucks what you go through every year though =/
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12-29-2008, 02:41 PM
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The Chill Keeper
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Re: I am going NUTS!
So, the song is the musical form of your feelings about the holidays if I interpret this correctly. And you feel this way because of the death of most of your family. If this is the case I am very sorry for your losses. On the other hand, you did get a pretty cool song out of it!
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12-29-2008, 02:57 PM
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Re: I am going NUTS!
Nice song, makes me want to beat up a bunch of baddies all Transporter 2-style.
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12-29-2008, 04:18 PM
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Swamp Lemons Rule
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Re: I am going NUTS!
why arent you doing acid
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12-30-2008, 06:27 PM
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Re: I am going NUTS!
This is pretty cool. It sounds like it needs to go into a climax at some point. I can't seem to find it.
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